I feel like shit...

momtobe19 · February 2011

So earlier I got upset because he kept asking me if I was upset... when I wasn't...

He left to go to his friends... whatever... we both got over it...

But then he calls me and asks me if I want to see a movie later and I said sure and looked up the movies and then text him with the movie and time... and he never responded.

So I text him 30 minutes from when the movie starts to ask him where he is (mind you he's about 30 minutes away) and he calls me... saying he's on his way already, but I can hear him barely getting into his car.

Plus his friends hate me... they've never liked me from the start.

So I get upset because he totally forgot about the movie all while probably playing video games with his stupid faggot friends that hate me. Then he finally gets here after saying on the phone all the way here that he really wants to make it up to me, and walks in the door and gets mad at me for being mad at him.

And it sucks because I totally feel like shit right now. I'm bipolar and just can't handle stuff like this I feel like just killing myself and ending this stupid fiasco. Then his stupid retarded loser friends can talk all the shit they want about me while I'm dead and can't fucking imagine it anymore.

mommy3 · February 2011

Have you seen a doctor? Your pregnant.. your hormones will make the smallest things something horrible! Killing yourself!!? Not sure that's a great idea. But.. he was wrong for making plans & forgetting about them.. just take a deep breathe don't stress it so much.. its not good for baby!

babyno1 · February 2011

You need to tell him that you really need him right now. This is a huge time for the both of you! If you are feeling down, you should talk to some family and friends and let them know what your feeling. Don't worry about what his friends are thinking! Just worry about yourself and the baby

momtobe19 · February 2011

Yeah, I've seen the doctor three times already... I have another appointment march 3rd and another one with my psychiatrist the following week.

I really don't want to get back on my medication to be honest, I've been ok for the most part, I get depressed sometimes... but it's not that bad just stuff that my boyfriend does that's so careless makes me just want to disappear.

I'll try not to stress... I just can't stop crying.

babyno1 · February 2011

Then maybe you don't need him. if you're having this much stress now, think about when the baby comes. Will he be around then?

I feel like shit...

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