IDK what to do, I don't want my baby around his family!
Its strange how motherly instinct hits you so intensely almost the moment you find out your preggo. Things I never before thought of now cross my mind, worrying me about how I can protect my baby. *sigh 
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My boyfriends family isn't *ideal* but whose is? & before I go further, I wanted to say the way they were never bothered me before, not my family, not my business...so I always would just chill if around them & mind my own, respectively of course. Im also not the *ideal* of fitting in with them either, but again I never cared, im me & am not going to act any different just to be accepted. Plus I treat my BF wonderfully, & love him with all my heart & am the best girlfriend he's ever had, so I figure that's reason enough to not dislike me.
But now I feel a lot different & stress & stress over it. Like last night we went to his cousins house & when we got home I was soo tired but couldn't fall asleep because my mind just kept thinking about how in the world am I going to protect my child from people like that especially when its the fathers own family? !?!
Number 1 I feel like I do not want to ever bring my child to his mothers house. She smokes in her house & has for years & years. Everything in there smells like old cigs, like a box of tissues my BF brought to my house from hers yesterday. I grabbed one ( not thinking anything of it) to blow my nose & then smelled the stench like as if I just stuck my nose in a full ashtray. (Yuck!) So now im trippin, BIG TIME! I just keep thinking how I do not want my newborn child taken into that house so she can she him/her for the 1st time. ( she's old & doesn't ever leave her house because of walking disabilities) Even if they don't necessarily light up while the babies there just the thought of all the fumes from the carpet to the drapes has me stressed out. Ugh, how am I going to get out of this one! ?!?
Number 2 His mother does not like me much, she puts up a front but her true colors of jealousy towards me have shown the minute my BF wasn't around before & she got the chance. Which whatever, im over it & know I never did anything wrong to any of them to treat me that way. But now that we are adding a child into the mix, I am not very fond of the fact of my child going over there & her disrespecting me in any way, shape, or form in front of my baby. She can say whatever to me or behind my back but I know & have seen how malicious she can be & wouldn't be the least surprised if she tried pulling that crap around my child.
Number 3 There is always unneeded drama around that house, she has a 40 something yr old son whose a twicker that lives outside (right now he's locked up, but he'll be back one day) My BF's sisters act completely inhuman half the time, always screaming & fighting eachother, trying to fight one anothers friends in the driveway, or having "gangsters" show up at the house threatening drive bys or damaging cars.
Number 4 Whenever any of them get the chance (not his mother, she just smokes cigs) they light up a blunt & since I've known them always do it all in front of their young children. Again...whatever, their not my children but now that my 1st is soon to come, im stressing! We go to his cousins house & its blunt after blunt while the kids run around playing or in the car...whatever, im not no square but im sure as hell giving my child a choice in life & am not EVER bringing any kind of smoking around them myself personally.
Last but not least, my BF is an amazing person, and is the golden child of his family but at the same time poked fun at by others because he is nothing like them. Before we ever even tried having a baby, we both agreed we would not be with our child how is family is with theirs. Nowadays im a little more bitchy & say mean stuff like my child is never going around those ghetto ass ppl. I believe we have a mutual understanding & he def knows how I feel & what I don't want...but I still stress because in all reality, how am I going to do this without them all making it a big deal? My BF knows what's up with them but like anyother person still loves his family & is loyal to them. Shit.
**My boyfriends family isn't *ideal* but whose is? & before I go further, I wanted to say the way they were never bothered me before, not my family, not my business...so I always would just chill if around them & mind my own, respectively of course. Im also not the *ideal* of fitting in with them either, but again I never cared, im me & am not going to act any different just to be accepted. Plus I treat my BF wonderfully, & love him with all my heart & am the best girlfriend he's ever had, so I figure that's reason enough to not dislike me.
But now I feel a lot different & stress & stress over it. Like last night we went to his cousins house & when we got home I was soo tired but couldn't fall asleep because my mind just kept thinking about how in the world am I going to protect my child from people like that especially when its the fathers own family? !?!
Number 1 I feel like I do not want to ever bring my child to his mothers house. She smokes in her house & has for years & years. Everything in there smells like old cigs, like a box of tissues my BF brought to my house from hers yesterday. I grabbed one ( not thinking anything of it) to blow my nose & then smelled the stench like as if I just stuck my nose in a full ashtray. (Yuck!) So now im trippin, BIG TIME! I just keep thinking how I do not want my newborn child taken into that house so she can she him/her for the 1st time. ( she's old & doesn't ever leave her house because of walking disabilities) Even if they don't necessarily light up while the babies there just the thought of all the fumes from the carpet to the drapes has me stressed out. Ugh, how am I going to get out of this one! ?!?
Number 2 His mother does not like me much, she puts up a front but her true colors of jealousy towards me have shown the minute my BF wasn't around before & she got the chance. Which whatever, im over it & know I never did anything wrong to any of them to treat me that way. But now that we are adding a child into the mix, I am not very fond of the fact of my child going over there & her disrespecting me in any way, shape, or form in front of my baby. She can say whatever to me or behind my back but I know & have seen how malicious she can be & wouldn't be the least surprised if she tried pulling that crap around my child.
Number 3 There is always unneeded drama around that house, she has a 40 something yr old son whose a twicker that lives outside (right now he's locked up, but he'll be back one day) My BF's sisters act completely inhuman half the time, always screaming & fighting eachother, trying to fight one anothers friends in the driveway, or having "gangsters" show up at the house threatening drive bys or damaging cars.
Number 4 Whenever any of them get the chance (not his mother, she just smokes cigs) they light up a blunt & since I've known them always do it all in front of their young children. Again...whatever, their not my children but now that my 1st is soon to come, im stressing! We go to his cousins house & its blunt after blunt while the kids run around playing or in the car...whatever, im not no square but im sure as hell giving my child a choice in life & am not EVER bringing any kind of smoking around them myself personally.
Last but not least, my BF is an amazing person, and is the golden child of his family but at the same time poked fun at by others because he is nothing like them. Before we ever even tried having a baby, we both agreed we would not be with our child how is family is with theirs. Nowadays im a little more bitchy & say mean stuff like my child is never going around those ghetto ass ppl. I believe we have a mutual understanding & he def knows how I feel & what I don't want...but I still stress because in all reality, how am I going to do this without them all making it a big deal? My BF knows what's up with them but like anyother person still loves his family & is loyal to them. Shit.
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