I'm scared! ): ):
hi, I'm 19 & on baby number 2. I have a 10 month old daughter..
I had gestational diabetes & pre-eclampsia with my last pregnancy. I found out about the g.d. at about 7 months, the the pre-eclampsia at about 8. they made me go into labor the day it was discovered. I had an amazing delivery, after 5 hours of contractions, I felt the urge to push.. my body was starting to push for me. I pushed my daughter out in 20 mins. I couldn't have asked for a better labor.
however, this time I'm terrified. my pregnancy wasn't too bad last time.. obviously I got pregnant again. but I can't shake this fear that the worst will happen this time. I keep having panic attacks.. I'm terrified of having high blood pressure(which obviously worrying isn't doing me any good) & I'm worried about my sugar levels. I know I can deal with the diabetes, but I'm scared of the pre-eclampsia. I'm scared of getting it early in my pregnancy & the worst will happen to the baby. you would think the second time around I wouldn't be scared, but I am. I have panic attacks frequently, or atleast I did during my first tri with my daughter, & after she was born..
I have been getting them recently, though. I have had them all my life. I just don't want to worry myself into something that I'm worried about. get what I mean? worrying so much that I get high blood pressure & end up getting what I most feared.
I'm such a worrier, & deep down I am scared & sometimes even pessimistic. however, on the outside I try & act strong. I think that if I continue to "act" strong, I can really be strong.
this pregnancy has sent me on an emotional rollercoaster. I cry, scream, & panic over everything.
I'm sorry this is soooo long, I just needed to vent. feel free to comment, or give advice. anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this through. I actually feel a little better after writing this.
(:
I had gestational diabetes & pre-eclampsia with my last pregnancy. I found out about the g.d. at about 7 months, the the pre-eclampsia at about 8. they made me go into labor the day it was discovered. I had an amazing delivery, after 5 hours of contractions, I felt the urge to push.. my body was starting to push for me. I pushed my daughter out in 20 mins. I couldn't have asked for a better labor.
however, this time I'm terrified. my pregnancy wasn't too bad last time.. obviously I got pregnant again. but I can't shake this fear that the worst will happen this time. I keep having panic attacks.. I'm terrified of having high blood pressure(which obviously worrying isn't doing me any good) & I'm worried about my sugar levels. I know I can deal with the diabetes, but I'm scared of the pre-eclampsia. I'm scared of getting it early in my pregnancy & the worst will happen to the baby. you would think the second time around I wouldn't be scared, but I am. I have panic attacks frequently, or atleast I did during my first tri with my daughter, & after she was born..
I have been getting them recently, though. I have had them all my life. I just don't want to worry myself into something that I'm worried about. get what I mean? worrying so much that I get high blood pressure & end up getting what I most feared.
I'm such a worrier, & deep down I am scared & sometimes even pessimistic. however, on the outside I try & act strong. I think that if I continue to "act" strong, I can really be strong.
this pregnancy has sent me on an emotional rollercoaster. I cry, scream, & panic over everything.
I'm sorry this is soooo long, I just needed to vent. feel free to comment, or give advice. anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this through. I actually feel a little better after writing this.
(:
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