i am sad today...and hate that. rant sorry
Ok I just need to say it aloud. I am lonelier than I want to admit. I am sooo frustrated. With my first I was married and now the ex guy/bd is a jerk. He said that he doesn't need to worry about me or have concern. My dr told me to stop being so busy and independent...as in I have to do it all by myself. I am a single mom of a seven yr old work six to seven days a week and keep my house up. He wasn't there in the beginning and at four months he pretended he wanted to be a dad. Now he wants a restraining order and I have left the man alone. I went off on him when he told me his concern was only for the baby that I didn't matter. And that once the baby is born he'd bond with OUR baby. Our baby? So I called a bitch and now he wants a restraining order. O by the way if you haven't heard he's married lives w his wife and NEVER told me until I got prego.
Don't get me wrong I don't want him. I want him to leave me alone!!! But I so miss someone wanting to care for me. I have spent the whole pregnancy alone and at 21 weeks I just want someone to care how my days went and rub my feet or back. Or someone to tell me I look cute even at fat size. I really love my independence but know in short 19 weeks I will have my daughter to care for plus my son. I hate going to sleep by myself every night. I didn't cry until easter bc it just gets to frustrating that I am pregnant and I have no support!!! What kind of man acts like the woman who carries the baby doesn't matter but then wants to be around and take the baby. I hate that he pretended to be wonderful. That I am pregnant w HIS baby and not someone elses. I have to be sick by myself and do everything myself. I know many many women do it and I have to. But I am looking at bed rest with one income being and stressing so much and I am so hurt that I don't even get a how r u doing. Where does he think babies come from? The stork? And this is his supposed third! I just want to feel loved today like I matter to someone! Ugh. I hate my hormones.
Don't get me wrong I don't want him. I want him to leave me alone!!! But I so miss someone wanting to care for me. I have spent the whole pregnancy alone and at 21 weeks I just want someone to care how my days went and rub my feet or back. Or someone to tell me I look cute even at fat size. I really love my independence but know in short 19 weeks I will have my daughter to care for plus my son. I hate going to sleep by myself every night. I didn't cry until easter bc it just gets to frustrating that I am pregnant and I have no support!!! What kind of man acts like the woman who carries the baby doesn't matter but then wants to be around and take the baby. I hate that he pretended to be wonderful. That I am pregnant w HIS baby and not someone elses. I have to be sick by myself and do everything myself. I know many many women do it and I have to. But I am looking at bed rest with one income being and stressing so much and I am so hurt that I don't even get a how r u doing. Where does he think babies come from? The stork? And this is his supposed third! I just want to feel loved today like I matter to someone! Ugh. I hate my hormones.
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@mamato2boys...it will but just not soon enough!!! They should have prego support.