i am sad today...and hate that. rant sorry

edited April 2011 in Pregnant
Ok I just need to say it aloud. I am lonelier than I want to admit. I am sooo frustrated. With my first I was married and now the ex guy/bd is a jerk. He said that he doesn't need to worry about me or have concern. My dr told me to stop being so busy and independent...as in I have to do it all by myself. I am a single mom of a seven yr old work six to seven days a week and keep my house up. He wasn't there in the beginning and at four months he pretended he wanted to be a dad. Now he wants a restraining order and I have left the man alone. I went off on him when he told me his concern was only for the baby that I didn't matter. And that once the baby is born he'd bond with OUR baby. Our baby? So I called a bitch and now he wants a restraining order. O by the way if you haven't heard he's married lives w his wife and NEVER told me until I got prego.
Don't get me wrong I don't want him. I want him to leave me alone!!! But I so miss someone wanting to care for me. I have spent the whole pregnancy alone and at 21 weeks I just want someone to care how my days went and rub my feet or back. Or someone to tell me I look cute even at fat size. I really love my independence but know in short 19 weeks I will have my daughter to care for plus my son. I hate going to sleep by myself every night. I didn't cry until easter bc it just gets to frustrating that I am pregnant and I have no support!!! What kind of man acts like the woman who carries the baby doesn't matter but then wants to be around and take the baby. I hate that he pretended to be wonderful. That I am pregnant w HIS baby and not someone elses. I have to be sick by myself and do everything myself. I know many many women do it and I have to. But I am looking at bed rest with one income being and stressing so much and I am so hurt that I don't even get a how r u doing. Where does he think babies come from? The stork? And this is his supposed third! I just want to feel loved today like I matter to someone! Ugh. I hate my hormones.

Comments

  • Please don't stress things will be ok just take it day by day. Breathe in and breathe out everyone has their moments. Men can be very rude and hurtful just stay strong. U can do it
  • .. im sorry you feel that way but one day you'll find an amazing man that will love you and the kids. You just have to keep smiling and put that loser on child support! :)
  • Thank you mama. I know he's not worth it. Think I just really am hormonal and trying not to stress. Being prego has made me cry and I am not a cryer. Feeling a little weak.
  • @jcmommy..oh he's navy and govt...I plan on taking his ass to the cleaners.
  • funny tho want to plaster his ass all over the web and radio. Think I am angry and sad...lol..what a mess
  • I bope you have some friends or family to lean on during the remainder of your pregnancy. Best of luck!
  • That sucks!!! But make his a$$ suffer lol that would make me feel better :)
  • I do.. I will be ok. just venting...before I freak out. My friends and family are there just not the same.
  • Sorry the last comment was @gladiator007....
    @mamato2boys...it will but just not soon enough!!! They should have prego support.
  • edited April 2011
    My guy is here and he's totally checked out from me I feel alone too. He's gotten baby things but doesn't want to talk about the baby or touch my belly or me. Ugg I understand how you feel... Alone and in need of affection. I sleep next to him every night but he is so checked out and at arms length. I'd rather he not be there it makes my feelings worse and I don't think its hormonal, we need affection. Hang in there it will be all forgotten when that little one is here.
  • @little1cashew...I am so sorry you have to go through that. Its one thing to have noone but another to have someone who's checked out. maybe its not hormonal. But it feels like it sooo frustrating. I know come time we both will have the bundles of joy to keep us busy. I think life is similar to murphys law...you hang in there too mama. I hope it gets better...
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