So.. I'm no longer pregnant.....

Eriskegal · May 2011

...but I'd like to stick around a while if no one minds.

We lost our baby at 14wks 3days on Thursday. It was devastating, and I'm recovering okay. Depression is getting the best of me at times, but my little ones giving me love and my loving partner assuring me all will be okay is keeping me going. This is the third loss with my fiance, and the latest in a long, long, long list of pregnancy and baby losses for me.

I have decided to let my body recover, take a break from really "trying" and enjoy the life we have right now. If it happens again, so be it. If I don't conceive anytime soon, I'm going to be okay with that.

Trina

[Deleted User] · May 2011

I don't see anything wrong with you staying with us hun. Im very sorry for your loss

I hope you get your miracle baby soon hun!

PrincessB · May 2011

Omg. I am so sorry to hear that.. I hope everything is ok w/ u guys!! Ima pray for y'all cus that is heart breaking.. my heart jus dropped. )=

socalMOMMA2boys · May 2011

I am so sorry for your loss. Stick I am here for you

mrs_wainright · May 2011

omg I am so sorry! I hope your body recovers fully! I'm sorry fir the depression!

socalMOMMA2boys · May 2011

*stick around

KrazymomofAdrian · May 2011

I am so sorry hun, but of course you can stay. Good luck.

angelsmommy · May 2011

I am very sorry to hear about your loss.

Momma_luvz_her_4 · May 2011

Im sorry to hear..... Glad you want to stick around

letysfirst · May 2011

Im so sorry for your loss... I know how devastating it can be. Dont let it get the best of u, u have a family that loves u n u love them. Like u said, give it time n good things always happen to those who wait. Keep your Head up n I wish u the best of luck, things will get better.

Eriskegal · May 2011

@MommyOfTwoPrincesses
@PrincessB
@socalMOMMA2boys
@mrs_wainright
@KrazymomofAdrian
@Momma_luvz_her_4
@letysfirst

Thank you for your kind words and encouragement/allowing me to stay. I have miracle babies, I truly do. I will get one more before I'm too old, I know it

For now, I'll help answer what I can and be here for those who may need it - I know what a help it is and an ease of the mind to have others who understand.

Thanks!

garagebandfan · May 2011

Don't leave us!

im so sorry for your loss! But there is no reason for you to lose us too!!

tons of women on here are ttc!!

mrs_wainright · May 2011

you are more than welcome!
are we supposed to leave after we have our kids?!

PrincessB · May 2011

Ur welcome!! Jus stay strong!! Your chance to b a mommy will happen soon. There's a reason for everything but god will allow u to become a mommy nd b the best mommy too (=

Eriskegal · May 2011

@garagebandfan Thanks!

@mrs_wainright I suppose that's one way to look at it -

@PrincessB I have three amazing children - miracles by all means - it still doesn't make this less devastating. Thanks for the kind words, hun.

Mybabe · May 2011

Sorry for your loss I will be praying for you... I have a question if you don't mind do what know what happen to loss your baby???

Eriskegal · May 2011

@Mybabe I have had a long history of miscarriages. At one time the doctors blamed it on PCOS (Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome), some have blamed it on my diabetes kicking into full swing far too early in pregnancy and causing a volatile environment for the baby, one doctor did an antibody test during one pregnancy to tell me that I have a disorder that causes blood clots behind the placenta and would need blood thinners during pregnancy. All in all, none of these things seem to be the true cause, and it possibly is a mixture - I don't know. I know I have a tilted and backwards uterus, a cervix that has had a history of cancer, lays far too low, and has muscles that weaken early in pregnancy before any real pressure is introduced.

This miscarriage was different than others, as I didn't cramp at all until I actually passed the baby. I had been in contact with my doctor and opted for an unassisted miscarriage at home rather than a D&C in the hospital.

I don't mind at all answering questions about anything at all I've said or shared on here- especially if it helps someone else... so feel free to ask me.

Eriskegal · May 2011

@OregonMama Where in Oregon are ya? I'm in Portland.

bambi_bump · May 2011

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending good vibes and energy your way to help your body recover. You're clearly a very strong person to be so open about this and all of Pregly is lucky to have you here :-)

Mommyof4girls · May 2011

@Eriskegal
Glad you're staying! You are so kind and helpful! Im praying for you and hoping that everything happens for you at the perfect time!

Eriskegal · May 2011

@bambi_bump Thanks!

@Mommyof4girls Thanks for the kind words - I try to be helpful in some way. Hugs.

mrs_wainright · May 2011

@eriskegal lol see, I'm smart(; jk jk

Eriskegal · May 2011

@OregonMama I certainly do. I have delivered stillborn twins, and had losses as late as 26 weeks. I hold every one of them dear to my heart. I used to live in Beaverton. I'm in outer SE now - back where I grew up. Hugs!

PrincessB · May 2011

Oh ok! Thank god! I thought u didn't have none! But yes this is still very sad shoot had my heart drop!

BensMama · May 2011

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Prayers for you as you grieve. I'm glad you're staying, I find the support here to be invaluable and I hope being here will bring you some comfort and peace. Lean on us, we're here for you!

ladicapo · May 2011

Aww I'm so sorry..this almost made me cry since I'm 14 weeks and 3 days and losing my baby is my worst fear ;( God bless you sweetheart and stay strong !