miscaariages and newly pregnant fears

rckprincess2rckprincess2
edited May 2011 in Pregnant
So I have mixed feelings. On june 14th it will be 3 years since I lost my first child at only 12wks. And on june 3rd it will be a year since I lost my second child at only 8wks. It still tears me up inside but its...easier in a way. I know I will cry for my angels on both of these days. I am now pregnant for the 3rd time with a little girl namec Lillith. I've had so many complications and almost lost her early on. I'm scared to death and will glad for september to get here so I won't have to worry about not ever knowing her. My hubby doesn't really understand as much because the 2nd and 3rd pregnancies are his but the first was my ex and he's the one who caused it. Getting pregnant causes me so much anxiety... I just wanted someone to talk to that might understand it from a moms point of view. Sorry so long.

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  • 2lilblessings2lilblessings
    did the doctors ever told u why u had the miscarriages?
  • CreamyappleCreamyapple
    Pls try not to worry and stay positive. praying for u
  • JuliansMommyJuliansMommy
    edited June 2011
    @rckprincess2 - I totally understand you, I had a m/c last year in. I'll be 23 weeks tomorrow and I swear there's not a day that goes by that I don't the worse like what if something happens to my baby. Every u/s appointment that I have I get really nervous and scared that I'll get bad news. I am grateful to god that he has blessed me with my Julian and I hope he continues to bless us until Oct when Julian is born. My poor hubby I'm always telling him I haven't felt him move, what if something happened to him. I will be relieved once my lil man is here:0) best wishes to you, you're almost there.
  • [Deleted User][Deleted User]
    I feel your pain. This is my third pregnancy as well, I lost the first two. I go from, happy to breakdown pretty fast. Good luck hun you are doing great.
  • audraaudra
    I went through the same thing. I lost my first at 12 weeks and my 2nd at 6weeks both times I was devastated. I'm now 12 weeks and everyday I'm worried that something will go wrong. People tell you not to worry because its bad, but that's easier said than done. The only thing that helps me is putting my trust in God and trusting His plan for my husband and me. I hope and pray everything goes perfectly for you. And of course its ok to think about your angels and cry for them sometimes. Good luck with everything:-)
  • newmommie1014newmommie1014
    I understand to! I had a m/c in december and got pregnant in feb. So all that hurt was so fresh in my mind. I freak out all the time!! Right now im 22 weeks and everything is going well but if I don't feel him move every hour I worry. And hubby really doesn't understand how much I needed him with this second pregnancy!! He wouldn't even go to the doctors with me. And I understand he didn't want to get bad news but neither would I. But we both have faith that all will end with a beautiful baby boy in Nov. Good luck to you ladies and your not alone!!
  • HopefulMom2BeHopefulMom2Be
    This is my 3rd pregnancy but first baby. I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks and an ectopic. I'm 20 1/2 weeks and I feel like the second half is going much slower. I worry all the time even though I try not too. It's really hard because I don't know what pains are normal and I'm always afraid to call the Dr. I'm already connected to this little girl and I can't imagine losing her! I pray every night for a healthy baby!
  • rckprincess2rckprincess2
    I'm 29wks now and I still worry. Some days she has like an off day and won't move almost at all. I try not to freak out too much but its really hard when normally she is so very active. I worry even now, I'm so attached to her that I don't know how I could handle anything going wrong. I'm battling depression and had to be put on medicine which worried me even more because I know they can have bad effects on her, but I took the risk because I couldn't even get out of bed because I was so down. I still battle with it but its easier most days with the medicine.

    june was a really tough month for me all in all. I had to deal with the m/c days and my sil having her baby. I'm happy for her but also mad/upset at her because she has been very careless and done a lot of things that could have easily harmed her own baby.

    Thank u everyone for replying to this. Its easier to deal with these issues knowing that I'm not the only one who has suffered with a lose.

    @waitingformybaby no they never told me what was the cause of either. My first they just left me in the er room and more or less did nothing to console me or ease the pain of it. The 2nd I had at home and it was so very hard. I knew what was happening though so I understood.

    This pregnancy I'm new and don't know what's right and what's wrong. Everything freaks me out and I usually have someone (friend or family) on the phone asking if they experience this or that...I'm sure they don't want to answer my calls anymore. Lol
  • kara_lamekkara_lamek
    I had a mc february 1st of this year. If it wouldn't of been for this app I would have went through it alone. My bf was an ass at the time. Im now pregnant again and only 5 weeks so im still very very nervous being so early on. I have better feelings about this pregnancy though. I lost my first at 6w2d. I just hope everything goes ok this time.
  • mandac10mandac10
    I mc too now im 21 weeks. I've been so scared n worried during this pregnancy. I hope everything is ok with all of u and myself!
  • willothewispwillothewisp
    I also had m/c feb of this year at 10w1d, i'm pregnant again & am 10w1d today, I've not enjoyed being pregnant in the slightest this time as just so scared it will happen again. I think its completely normal to worry, how can you not when you've gone through the pain of losing a child? I hope everything works out for everyone on here & we all have sticky & healthly little ones growing inside us.
  • lovemylife11lovemylife11
    I lost my first baby a year ago on july 1 and I still morn for it even tho im now 31 weeks pregnant with a beautiful baby boy ull never get over a lose of a child u just got to take it one day at a time o an I was 11 weeks we baby stopped growing :(
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