So So Hurt!!!
Ok so me and BD have been fighting a lot lately before Jeremiah surprised us I had left him because he was talking to other girls and talking crap about me to them! By talking I mean flirting! This has happened before. So now I seriously have trust issues with him he said we should try counselling that lasted a whole two sessions he even missed the second one! Ok I've had enough of this! I than find out he has been messaging this girl Amanda who always flirts with him and of course he talks crap about how I'm jealous and don't want to be with him and so forth! Uh duh I don't with u talking crap about me!! My son was born 3 months premature! I have bigger things to worry about than ur childish butt!! Than since the lease ended and my insurance is paying for a hotel I told him He could stay with me cuz I'm moving back to my hometown and that way he can save all his checks till than! Ok guess how much he has saved? $000.00 yup nada!!! Ok fine! Than he starts flirting with his co-worker on facebook! Seriously?! Than so lately I've been like maybe I'm hormonal? So he works 12hr-shifts and his last day was Sunday morning he got back. So he slept all day yesterday last night and well I kept trying to get him up and he wouldn't finally at 2 I get him up we go to walmart and social security office for Jeremiah! Than on our way back to drop off groceries he tells me he is gonna go hang out with his friend! I tell him ok fine and he goes off about how controlling I am!! I'm like what?! Fine get the beep out of my car he was like go go I want to see my son! Well I made him walk! I try telling him he doesn't spend time with us and he just looks at me and says I'm here all the time! I tell him sleeping with me doesn't count! Ugh than he gets mad at me cuz I go through his phone! Umm hello I'm just catching up on the daily gossip about me thanks! He messages his friend saying I'm crazy and he can't go off my phone! Saying I don't lend him my phone! Umm its in ur hand!! Jackass!! I don't want him around! Yeah we get along great and great sex life but I don't want this forever!! Ur acting like a kid when my son is in the NICU just had a bad set back! I feel like crying I feel so sad! I'm worried about depression!! Idk what to do! My family hates him! I just want my son!! I hate him and his stupid butt! And he hates me for not wanting to be a family!! Really?! Ur getting mad at me after being a man whore! I feel so frustrated! I want to kick him! I'm sorry so long I feel frustrated and just getting depressed I rely on someone else to take care of my son! I can't take care of him and his dad sucks!! I try talking to him he ignores me and just stares like I'm stupid! Ugh I have so much pent up! Don't even start me on him bitching and moaning about moving away from his skanks!! I moved asshole y can't u?! Y cant u act like a dad?! Y cant u act like a bf?! Oh and while we where fighting he ask y i dont get dressed for him! My response was when u act like a bf ill treat u like one!! But really i have no clothes here just a few my family brought me! No make or curling iron! Umm ass!! I'm sorry I can keep going on and on! Ill stop!
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@Island_Mommie2B yeah I don't need it! and Jeremiah had to get his tube back in and his lungs collapsed! He needed a blood transfusion i was gonna update everyone i just had to vent first! I've been so stressed than he has the nerve to do this to me!! I don't ask for much honestly I do everything I can for him and I feel like crap with him! Apparently I'm controlling and crazy he tells me every day multiple times cuz I don't trust him I wonder y! And lately when we play he hurts me badly! Like we always horseplay and I now have 3 bruises from him! I'm like wth? U never leave me bruises! I'm getting pissed imma end up grabbing a bat and beating the crap outta him!
And yeah he was so strong but developed a UTI which was tough for him. But he is getting better! He even pulled out his tubes! He figured if he spits enough it causes the tape to unstick and he can pull the tube out! Lol he is already a handful! !
Leave him, you'll be happier alone and free yourself up to let a real man find you. Focus on your baby, he needs you happy. Message me if you need to talk or add me on Facebook. Lillie.Martinez711@yahoo.com
@Island_Mommie2B yeah he gets this little grumpy face its cute. Yeah he does love his rest! He is one feisty little guy that's for sure!
@OregonMama trust me I've thought about it.
@myowndisaster23 he is a good dad but just no when he gets distracted! I would love raising Jeremiah on my own but it wouldn't be fair to my son. Hence y right now he is only going to get visitation and no over nights for the first year at least!
@mgrose yeah I agree u think he would be there more ofter but u never know with him! And yeah he is getting better just learning to focus on one day at a time.
@mummy_to_be yeah exactly! When I left I had talked to my dog more than I did him! I hadn't talked to him for 3 days! Except a hi or bye! No hug nothing I was like wtf? I'm not staying than after finding out about the girls! Calling them before work or after work making sure I never saw! Its beeping me off just remembering!! Its sad when ur only friend in a city is ur dog! And that's cuz u feed him!