its over
So as some of u may know I had my son at 27 weeks. I had just left his dad due to him talking to other girls. Its been constant stress with Jeremiah in the hospital. We tried working things out but I don't think I can forgive him. Now that I don't trust him he thinks I'm controlling cuz id prefer he doesnt talk to girls! Umm wonder y! But its been constant fighting and I honestly think we r going to end up hating each other. 
I don't want my son growing up with us fighting. There is more but I've put my foot down its over. I just can't with the stress and I feel bad for my son! I dont want him passed back and forth between houses I want a happy life for him! I don't want him to feel left out! It kills me! I'm stressed enough if it wasn't for the smile my son gives me everyday I would cry 24/7 I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown and seeing Jude ever day doesn't help. Its like he doesn't care anymore! He just accepted it which kills me. He talks about dating other people and I'm just like wow. I am happy the fighting ended but sad for my son! Sad he has to go through this. 
idk I'm just letting it out finally! No one knows its done not even doctors or nurses or friends to everyone I'm just happy as a bee!
I don't want my son growing up with us fighting. There is more but I've put my foot down its over. I just can't with the stress and I feel bad for my son! I dont want him passed back and forth between houses I want a happy life for him! I don't want him to feel left out! It kills me! I'm stressed enough if it wasn't for the smile my son gives me everyday I would cry 24/7 I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown and seeing Jude ever day doesn't help. Its like he doesn't care anymore! He just accepted it which kills me. He talks about dating other people and I'm just like wow. I am happy the fighting ended but sad for my son! Sad he has to go through this. idk I'm just letting it out finally! No one knows its done not even doctors or nurses or friends to everyone I'm just happy as a bee!
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Hang in there tho n keep ur head up. Let ur son b motivation that will keep u going fwd n being a strong independent woman! It's going to b a hard n emotional road but u can do it. One day u will find a man who will treat u like the queen u r. Just take it day by day.
@kritten_octoberbby we tried counselling lasted 2 sessions he didn't even go to the second one lol but he says he hasn't talked to girls blah blah that I'm just a controlling gf blah blah blah its hard but with it this way we r just going to hate eachother
@adri805 right now with everything he goes through my son shows me how strong he is and as I mother I have to be stronger! If he can do it I can do this and a lot more!!
@Mrs_shu I don't know what the future holds but I hope its the best for my son. Who knows maybe it will be better for a relationship but now I'm too hurt and I can tell he wants his freedom so I'm giving it to him I don't want this anger in me its time to move on past the situation and him
@I honesty hope that we can both just be friendly like that! We both love Jeremiah and want the best. He wants a family but can't act like a father or husband! I just don't know if I can handle someone watching my son like a stepmother that part kills me! We agreed we must see someone 6 months before introducing Jeremiah to anyone. Thanks I need luck!
@Yeah he chose us too but the fighting has gotten worse and worse! We call eachother names he even started calling me a controlling bitch which he has never dared call me a bitch! That's how I know we r going to just hate each other! I mean we even start falling asleep on opposite sides facing away from each other! Idk I hope u and ur bd work everything out I'm rooting for u guys!
@sunshinelove honestly I don't get mad he talks to girls cuz he does have girls he talks to that don't phase me. Its the way he talks to a few of them. Perhaps u haven't read my other post? He goes around and writes these girls he would come home late to talk to these girls erase their texts and did who knows what else. I don't get jealous cuz he talks to them I get hurt cuz he has such little disrespect for me he flirts with other girls and takes them out on dates. He has cheated. Maybe we where just raised on different beliefs but to me saying u love someone than flirting with other girls and keeping it a secret is just disrespectful and rude kinda like them checking out other girls while standing next to u. My dad raised me to have a lot of respect for myself and never allow anyone to disrespect me but again maybe we were raised differently and this could have a different meaning to both of us and I take more offense to things than others would. Its honestly ok I wasn't offended at all. I know many people see things differently.