I made my baby cry...
So my SO just stormed out...and it was over a ridiculous argument about what we're doing for Halloween. Im going to give you the backstory because I need to vent...
So I knew that Mike would want to do something for Halloween, whether it was go to the bar or to a party. So a couple days ago I asked him what the plan was, and he said he wasnt sure. I asked when he thought we might celebrate Halloween, that Saturday or on Monday, the actual holiday, because I needed to make plans for a babysitter for Daniel. He snapped at me, telling me that he didnt know, he had no way of knowing. I was quiet for a moment and asked if he just wanted to plan on staying home with a scary movie and handing out candy to kids on Monday then, and he said that was fine. I made plans for Daniels father to take Daniel for Halloween then, I figured if we werent going to do anything than at least we could have an uninterrupted night to ourselves.
Today he comes home and says, oh, I was talking to Boone (his best friend), we're going to a party next Saturday, the 22nd. Oh, and you need to choose a costume now so itll get here in time, Boone and I already ordered our costumes, we're gonna be ketchup and mustard together.
So it makes me a little jealous that he didnt even want to talk Halloween with me and now hes going tandem with someone besides me, but I think in my head that I might just be acting silly, so I dont worry about it. I get online and cant choose between a little red riding hood costume and a fox costume, so I ask him to make the final decision. He says he doesnt care, he likes both of them. It made me jealous again that he is so excited about his costume with Boone, but couldnt give two shits about mine, so I just tell him to order the cheapest one. He looks and says that he didnt realize they were so expensive, his and Boones were only $20. So I just told him not to worry about it. He asked what my problem was, and so I told him.
I told him that it sucks that he couldnt even guess at an outline of a plan, and that because of that I was going to miss Daniels first Halloween. I told him that it hurt my feelings that he didnt want to talk to me about plans for Halloween at all, but that it was cool for him to talk about it with Boone, and that it made me jealous that he wanted to do a tandem costume with Boone but if I suggested a couples costume, hed call me lame. His response to all this was to heave a big sigh and say "oh my GOD." So I told him that it wasnt even worth talking about anymore.
After a couple minutes of silence, he tried to bring the subject up again, and I told him I was done talking about it. Thats when he slammed my computer down and stormed out, saying he was going home.
I started crying after he left, and my previously smiley baby looked up at me, touched my face with his soft little hand, jutted out his bottom lip and started crying.
Great. Now not only am I jealous and hurt, now I feel awful for crying in front of my son.
So I knew that Mike would want to do something for Halloween, whether it was go to the bar or to a party. So a couple days ago I asked him what the plan was, and he said he wasnt sure. I asked when he thought we might celebrate Halloween, that Saturday or on Monday, the actual holiday, because I needed to make plans for a babysitter for Daniel. He snapped at me, telling me that he didnt know, he had no way of knowing. I was quiet for a moment and asked if he just wanted to plan on staying home with a scary movie and handing out candy to kids on Monday then, and he said that was fine. I made plans for Daniels father to take Daniel for Halloween then, I figured if we werent going to do anything than at least we could have an uninterrupted night to ourselves.
Today he comes home and says, oh, I was talking to Boone (his best friend), we're going to a party next Saturday, the 22nd. Oh, and you need to choose a costume now so itll get here in time, Boone and I already ordered our costumes, we're gonna be ketchup and mustard together.
So it makes me a little jealous that he didnt even want to talk Halloween with me and now hes going tandem with someone besides me, but I think in my head that I might just be acting silly, so I dont worry about it. I get online and cant choose between a little red riding hood costume and a fox costume, so I ask him to make the final decision. He says he doesnt care, he likes both of them. It made me jealous again that he is so excited about his costume with Boone, but couldnt give two shits about mine, so I just tell him to order the cheapest one. He looks and says that he didnt realize they were so expensive, his and Boones were only $20. So I just told him not to worry about it. He asked what my problem was, and so I told him.
I told him that it sucks that he couldnt even guess at an outline of a plan, and that because of that I was going to miss Daniels first Halloween. I told him that it hurt my feelings that he didnt want to talk to me about plans for Halloween at all, but that it was cool for him to talk about it with Boone, and that it made me jealous that he wanted to do a tandem costume with Boone but if I suggested a couples costume, hed call me lame. His response to all this was to heave a big sigh and say "oh my GOD." So I told him that it wasnt even worth talking about anymore.
After a couple minutes of silence, he tried to bring the subject up again, and I told him I was done talking about it. Thats when he slammed my computer down and stormed out, saying he was going home.
I started crying after he left, and my previously smiley baby looked up at me, touched my face with his soft little hand, jutted out his bottom lip and started crying.
Great. Now not only am I jealous and hurt, now I feel awful for crying in front of my son.
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