guys :'( i need some cheering up please
so my bd never lets me talk about whats bothering me cause he just blows up about it and then makes himself the victim even if the subject isnt about him.. anyway i brought that up and he said he was sorry and to let him know whats been bothering me.. so i told him how i feel like im doing this on my own since im paying for my baby shower i mean my mom would love to pay for it but i just dont feel like its her responsibility and charles said he would help out at the beginning so i was sure we would be fine well my baby shower is on sunday and he hasnt paid for a single thing and when i ask for him to at least lend me some money (since he gets paid double what i get paid and doesnt really have any bills) he says no anyway so i told him that and he somehow got mad about it and blew up on me, and now if you guys have seen any of my other post i said how i was severly depressed and suicidal right before i found out i was prego, so since he knows about that he throws it in my face all the time and he said "if it wasnt for me getting you pregnant you would be dead in a ditch and no one would ever care" those words hurt so bad i cant stop crying i feel so alone already i dont need him reminding me of it... im so down guys please try to cheer me up you guys are all i have 
i dont like telling my friends about my problems cause i dont want their pitty or them to think of him differently since hes a great friend just a horrible lover... im so broken
i dont like telling my friends about my problems cause i dont want their pitty or them to think of him differently since hes a great friend just a horrible lover... im so broken
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@2BeForgotten thank you so much :')