I wish the father of my child would realize the truth
Everything sucks and I'm very miserable. I hate seeing people happy because I am just starting to not believe in happiness. Everything with my ex was amazing. I loved him so much. He is in the Navy and he is currently deployed. I went to see him in California before he deployed and that is when I got pregnant, this was back in Nov. I took the morning after pill when I got home and obviously they didn't work. We emailed each other numerous times a day and we were so happy that we were discussing getting engaged. When I found out I was pregnant its was the beginning of the end. He is very bi-polar about the situation... One day he is good and the next he doesn't want it... I have come to realize that his mother has a big influence on him. I obviously didn't realize how big of a momma's boy he is. She is ruining my life. She is making up lies, and she is twisting the truth. She clearly doesn't want him and I together. She has threatened me, tried to contact my mom, and she has been filling his head with nonsense. She is even trying to tell the state that I am manipulating them because I was dancing to try to save up. I'm miserable. I didn't ask for this but I'm going to love this child and obviously raise another one alone. I just wish him and I still talked and were still together. I don't remember ever feeling the love I have for him, for someone else. 
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ya, she has done too much damage for me to ever forgive her.
I wish it wasn't that way.
Means a lot to have people who support me, even though we don't know eachother personally.
I have a 5 yr old already. This child and my son now have the same due date.... kinda fate huh?
anything sexual said or done towards me I cringe!