im so lost. please help.

fmcneal

I want a baby. I have always wanted my kids 2 yrs apart. My youngest will be 2 in july. I want to have one. Also my best friend is preg with #3 and we have been having our kids close together. I have sever depression which I'm tring to control on my own (without medication). I don't have insurance because its too expensive through my husbands company. And I am only covered by medicaid if I'm pregnant. If I get pregnant then I would get medicaid and then I could get help with my depression and after the baby I could get on some madication. We can't afford another baby and I don't think we ever will. I don't have a job partly cuz of my depression and partly cuz we can't pay for daycare. Also I'm afraid if I have a job then we won't qualify for what we need and the thing about that is we still wouldn't be able to afford anything. I'm worried about the money but I don't know anyone who isn't. I guess I just don't know what to do. I'm very baby hungry. I see babies and pregnant women and want that. I want to be pregnant and I want a newborn. I also want help with my depression. What should I do? Can anyoone help. I'm sorry this is so long. I'm just so lost and need someone to talk to who might understand.

Prayin_4_twins

@Twin_Angels @fmcneal I completely understand! Hubbt has been out of a job since Sept & there is nothing to offer in our area We habe been ttc for 18 months now! I want to be a mommy more than anything in the world!!!!!! There are over 20+ girls I know that are prego right now! I see pregos & babies everywhere I turn & I just start crying! Happy for them but sad for us! Hubby nor I have children

live4my2

Aww. Hang in there. I have suffered w depression for as long as I can remember. Been med free for two years now and I finally feel great. You know the saying...if u wait until you can afford a baby then u will never have one. I totally agree w that. When u have another baby u just adjust how u already spend. Do what you feel is right. Follow your heart and not your head. I am here for you or anyone on the board that ever needs to talk! Big hugs coming your way!

fmcneal

Thank you so much ladies. @live4my2 I have also stuggled with depression for a very long time. In high school med didn't help I just made them think I was better but never was. It gets worse with my preg but that's why I want to get help with it so that when #3 gets here it won't be as bad. Thank you all for the support. I wasn't really trying for this month and we ended up not preg and it made me sad and want it more. With my other 2 we weren't really trying either, just didn't stop it. Lol. Were going to try next month though. I want a little girl so bad it almost hurts. I have 2 boys. I just know people will thibk we are stupid and irresponsible if we do conceive. my mom is the exception lol, she wants us to start trying asap. Lol. But I'm sorry for complaining so much. I'm just having a hard time and just need to talk. So I'm sorry. Thanks for listening.

Prayin_4_twins

Sweetie don't feel sorry for complining or venting thats what we're here for! My mom is just waiting very impatiently for a grandchild! She ask/prays everyday! She is as anxious as we are! Our other family members think they can put in their two cents......they all had their babies when they were in High school & all their children are teenagers now! Its just not fair & if I hear "life isn't fair " one more time I'm gonna be very angry! lol!

fmcneal

We haven't told anyone we are ttc cuz we know what they will say. " you shouldn't be having another baby right now" (sarcastic voice lol)