can't stop crying, venting. (long)
Okay so my man does taxes (and its tax season) so I hardly seen him these last four months. Except for early mornings and at like 10 at night and when he gets home he always wants to play that dang black ops. I go to be around 11 and he wont come to bed until maybe 4 he'll just sleep down stairs so I never get time with him. And when I go down there he's always "thinking" and doesn't want to be bothered. I don't work so I'm here all day alone with our 7 dogs and that gets boring I want to go out and do anything. I can't even get him to go out to eat with me and ihop is right down the street. And last night I picked him up from work because I had the car and we got home around 12:30 and when we got here he went straight to the couch and I kould tell something was on his mind so I go and lay on him and ask is he going to come to bed and he says later. I ask what's on your mind and he raises his voice and tells me to just leave him alone he's thinking. I say okay and go up stairs to bed. Around 2 something in the morning I hear him making a phone call but I was just too tired to make much of it. Then he comes up saying he's going to leave soon to go get stuff and I'm like really at 2 in the morning? He leaves without me knowing I look out the window and see him getting onto the but the opposite way of where he said he was going. And I know he's ex lives that way so immediately that sets off an alarm. And just to say his ex is also pregnant 19 weeks and by him but I've encouraged him to talk to her because she is carrying his baby but anywho so come to find out that's were he went at 3 in the morning. I'm at home pissed because her made up this big ass lie to go over her house and "talk" but hasn't talked to her this whole time. Then when I call him out on his BS he gets mad at me and said I started this and hangs up in my face. I'm trying yo resolve the issue and he's blowing it up. I feel like I'm not going to have the family I thought I was going to have. He use to be so happy he wanted our baby more than I do I never wanted kids and not this young (21 next Friday) but now it just seems like we're falling apart. I do everything I possibly can to keep him happy. I don't work but I constantly bring him home 300, 400, 500 gifts and its not appreciated at all. One day he wants me to work and the next he wants me to be a stay at home mom. I'm just confused. Idk if its the hormones or if there's something really wrong. 
Sorry if this was long or a bunch of rambling and didn't make much sense but I'm just so out of it. Nothing makes sense to me anymore. can't even stop myself from crying.
Sorry if this was long or a bunch of rambling and didn't make much sense but I'm just so out of it. Nothing makes sense to me anymore.
can't even stop myself from crying.
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He is pushing u away it seems, by not willing to go anywhere or talk to you. Having 2 pregnant females in his life is stressful, especially when u both are wanting him.That being said, it's something he caused not you!! Idk how you should handle it all, but you need to stay focused on your baby.
@kritten_octoberbby thank you I hope so too.
There's so much going through my mind right now.
And its like its so hard for him to just communicate with me.
For my birthday I asked him for a commitment. No more lies, more communication, and be faithful. He said okay but he's also said that before. And now look where we are.
But I'm not going to stay stuck on the pass she's pregnant and there's nothing I can do about it. But support him.
Or at least that's what I think I should do.
@fourandoneontheway yeah that's kind of how it use to be but he hasn't talked to her since last year and she popped up like I'm pregnant and messed up everything. But I can't blame her.
@mz_mommie yeah I understand I've had a miscarriage before (July 21, 2010) so I know the feeling. And never want to feel that way again.