Ok.. I need to have a meltdown!!

mommyof3andexpecting

So.. Me and dh just moved to pa from mass.. I have no friends or family here but my three kids and hubby. At the last minute we were told that our house that we spent ALL our money for doesnt.. have a meter so we can't move in for a couple days.. Ff we have been in dh families house for two weeks. I only met these people one other time might I add. They are nice but its aunt uncle three cousins and four small kids. Add me dh and three more small kids and the fact I'm pregnant and hormonal its just stressing me out. I have been supporting dh and all said kids for two years. Fully. No help. Now he is working which is great but he throws it in my face!! I never did that to him!! He came home today.. I'm cranky. Kids arent listening and I'm not feeling good. Gestational diabetes.. Yay!! Well I'm stressed tired cranky and all I simply say is babe I'm not feeling good today. He says why I'm the one who had to work you didnt do shit all day. Really?? Wtf!! Meanwhile in the last two weeks he has smoked weed daily. I spazz. He hadn't done this in a long time. We have no privacy. He treats me like I'm in the way or just not there half the time. The other half he asks for sex. Except when we are alone he acts back to normal.. Which is in bed. Meanwhile all thes3 of my kids are sleeping in one bed in the same room as us. And everytime I try to talk to him about everything I'm feeling he blows me off like my feelings arent valid. I miss my friends and family. I want to move into my house. And my husbands being a jerk. Add in that my kids schedule is messed up insanely and I'm hormonal as hell.. I just want to scream! I never cry usually. But im hiding in the bathroom to do just that at least three times a day now!! I'm worried how this stress is affecting the baby and I'm worried that my dh might not go back to normal when we move.. Ugh!! Add that to the fact I've always been making my own money and in control of finances and now dh is.. I'm going crazy!!.literally!!

Jaime77

U have many life changing events all at once! Of course your going crazy. All u can do is take baby steps, when u get into your own home, settle in new routines, have baby then go back to work it should all return to normal.
We moved from r.i. to pa 2 years ago. Literally it was hell having no friends family here. Once I began to work, things are ok now. Hope u calm a bit for babe.

mommyof3andexpecting

I'm trying but I feel like I got no support.. And I wanted to do school from home so I could be home with the kids for awhile.. But I need some freedom!! I've always been get up and go. Now I feel isolated.

Jaime77

i felt isolated here, I am a city girl, moved to amishville (lancaster pa) i'm surrounded by farms now. U will find a healthy balance. First get into your house, you will feel alot better

mommyof3andexpecting

I hope so!! I'm in reading. If my husband wasn't being such an ass I would be ok but grr..

mrs_wainright

wow!! I couldn't do it!! you are a strong woman, my hubby smokes when he gets stressed and has days where he doesn't wanna talk to me!! its hard but just keep your chin up!! you will more than likely feel better once your in. your house

mommyof3andexpecting

I think so too. I've been on my own for a long time I'm not used to staying with people. I don't mind him smoking sometimes but I don't want it to be a daily habit. Why did you guys move out here?