Induction jidders
Yesterday I posted about being induced tomorrow, and well im truly am super nervous, spent quite a bit crying cause everything us changing again and because I feel like im robbing my first born, only just turned a year a couple weeks ago, of being the baby, I feel terrible, bringing tears to my eyes right now jyst thinking about it. I hate mtself in a way wish I waited a lil longer for baby number 2, which is a girl too. I love my new baby already dont get me wrong, its not her fault I jumped the saddle again, but I wish I could have given my first more time being the baby, and then on top of that im scared of being induced because all the horror stories ive heard and read about (i know I shouldnt look but I do, the internet is so bad at times) I can tolerate some pain, but with my first I only lasted about 2 hours before I called for the epi, I dunno about this time, ive heard the pain is wors. I feel better now a lil since I said that, but still queasy