engaged n stressin over makin the wrong choices again!
I'm due Aug. 8th. To be married in Nov. Ring shopped n chosen. I currently have a lil girl who's 19mos. N knows this man as her only daddy. Long story short,keepin in contact wit da dna wasn't healthy for any of us. I luv my fiance dearly but faced some infidelities along the way thus giving me my complex in trust wit him now. I learned I was preggers in Nov. I chose to be with him because he made me feel so special when at the time I didn't deserve it. I'm not the kindest heart out there. I eventually grew to luv him but still have doubts of his loyalty. He lives with me n does so much for our family. I know he luvs me but I'm afraid of old tendencies. I want my son to know him n have him here always. Tired of searching n dating n doing da same old thing. I'm happy for the most part until I find exes numbers in his phone or emails from his bm whom he was to have no more contact with due to her own mental issues. Turns out his Lil sis called one from his new phone Cuz dats her bff, which I find disrespectful. The email was a viagra one from his bitter bm so it could've been her way of talkin ish to him. I haven't caught him, per say, responding but am very concerned. I don't want him to leave but sometimes I act like i could care less. I want our family to work n so does he. Can't seem to find common ground n don't wanna hurt my babies in the long run. Any tips? I'm stubborn n strong minded. Nothing helps. No time for counceling right now. Don't wanna make the wrong choice again.