Depressed

Kcantu2

Im happy with my babies, but I stay so sleepy. Im now worried bc my mom and everyone else gangs up on me. I live with my mom, who.hates my bd, and gives me hell constantly about him and my kids and what im doing or he isnt doing. I want out, and I have nowhere to go, and no.income to support myself anymore. Im seriously to the point of feeling suicidal, but I love my kids too much. Maybe its just ppd since I just had my son. But it just gets so bad and I dont know how to cope.

Kcantu2

I feel like if I tell anyone it will cause problems with my kids,

mommabee13

Aww I'm sorry hun

Kcantu2

@mommabee13 im seriously at a loss of knowing what to do

luvdababy

Go see your doctor and tell him or her what's going on. It should not cause you problems. They may be able to recommend a good support group or other things that are specific to your situation. PPD is something your OB/GYN sees often and they have experience w/ways to help you. Also if BD is supportive of you share this with him. Please keep me posted

mommabee13

What's ur situation with the bd?

Kcantu2

@luvdababy it just worries me. My bd is far from supportive, I honestly think he has alot to.do with it. But I could literally cry every second of every day, or sleep. If it was not for my children I would be everything upsets me and I do my best to hide it. But.... Its getting harder. I keep reading articles saying with ppd theres resentment towards the baby... I dont feel anything bad towards him.

Kcantu2

@mommabee13 were not together, he doesnt help. He isnt around. We fight, then get along, then fight more. He broke up with me during both pregnancies for underage girls.... Its awful

luvdababy

I am sorry to hear that your BD isn't supportive. Do you have other family or friends that can help you?

mommabee13

Well I had bad depression and was on lexapro than when I couldn't afford that I smoked..obviously not around babies or breastfeeding but sometimes its something chemically in us

Kcantu2

@luvdababy I live with my mom who constantly puts me down, I dont have many other ppl in my life, none of which really support me.
@mommabee13 I need something to just, change, I guess. I hate being unhappy.

luvdababy

Go see your OB/GYN or check out PPD hotlines on the web there are numbers that can get you connected to the support you need and @mommabee13 is right about the lexapro it can be helpful. I'm so sorry your going through this. Wish I could give ya a hug!

artistmamma

My sister had PPD after the birth of her son, but all her negative feelings were directed towards her husband. They almost divorced, she fought with him constantly, cried a lot, felt sleepy a lot, but like you, never experienced anything negative towards her child. She ended up seeing a Psychiatrist weekly for almost 6 months, took meds for awhile, & got back on track. But it wasn't easy. She, too, felt like her son was the only thing keeping her from committing suicide, & her doctor was well aware of her feelings.

PPD is serious, & it's also nothing to feel ashamed about. I share my sister's story with you so that you won't feel alone in your suffering, & perhaps you'll be inspired to reach out & get help like she did. Stay strong momma! I'm here if you need to talk...

Hugs!

Kcantu2

@luvdababy thank you, im definately going to discuss my feelings with my dr friday. I feel like if I could relax a little emotionally I will be ok.

@artistmamma thank you for sharing that. I hate that she went through that. Hopefully I can figure it out. I feel detached and I hate it.

luvdababy

Your welcome. I don't comment alot on this forum but do check in regularly. Please keep me updated. If you need just to talk let me know.

Kcantu2

@luvdababy I will thanks so much