I'm a bad person and I don't deserve to be happy
My friend had a scan of her baby who's 11 weeks and then text me overjoyed that all is ok. She doesn't want this baby, all she's been doing is moaning about needing a bigger house a bigger car and bigger clothes. She's done nothing but complain about bad timimg and it being expensive but at least when she has he/she the benefits will be bigger and cover all the aggro she's getting from this baby!
I am still suffering after delivering my son almost 3 weeks ago at 21 wks. He was born sleeping. I can't help but wish I was still pregnant and that her baby had died. I miss my boy so much, we wanted him with all our hearts and love him unconditionally.
These feelings make me such a bad person and I don't deserve to live.
I am still suffering after delivering my son almost 3 weeks ago at 21 wks. He was born sleeping. I can't help but wish I was still pregnant and that her baby had died. I miss my boy so much, we wanted him with all our hearts and love him unconditionally.
These feelings make me such a bad person and I don't deserve to live.
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I'm sorry you have to go through this. Anger and even resentment is part of grieving and its hard. I would just ignore people....which might not be healthy because I still ignore them 9 months later.
My dh fields a lot of this for me. He's a quiet man and constantly listening to people talking to me and intervenes if he feels they are upsetting me. People think he's mean but really he's saving my life.
Just tell her that you are dealing with your own issues right now and do not want to discuss her pregnancy. If she is your friend then she will understand. Again I'm really sorry you have to go through this.
@jodi102011 We're launching lanterns at 19:08 from his graveside on dd to mark the date. I really don't know, i was doodling ideas one afternoon then all i did was change the arc of his wings and add the middle heart and bo it was done x