*Venting*
So the last time I spoke with my bd he said a lot of awful things to me:
He starts saying that I put myself in this situation, I ran off with my tail inbetween my legs back home to my mommy and daddy, he didn't want a kid, we were nothing, he never gave a fuck about me, he doesn't give a fuck about me or what happens to me, he doesn't even like me, we're enemies, that for some reason Im still tryin to be with him when I've known about all his dirt for a few months now so I must be a glutton for punishment, how i'm an awful person and he would never want to be my friend and doesn't see how I have friends. I would give him rides to work, pick up/drop off his son from/to school, we were together all the time, we worked together and the worst things people had say about me were that I was too nice and a bit of a pushover, he's the one who nobody at work liked, hes the one who lied to me, gave me stds, then got me preg, bounced with a new gf and I'm the awful person??
*UPDATE* So I posted all this what? a month ago right? Havent' heard from the SOB since, until this morning that is. I went to get a 4d ultrasound yesterday and my baby looked soo beautiful. He looked like an angel! You can see so much detail, I can see exactly what he looks like. I sent the pic to everyone, including him. I don't know why I did it, I guess I was just so excited about the picture. I actually just made it my profile pic. I haven't had a profile pic since I signed up for pregly, but I love this pic soo much!
So He called me up wanting to apologize for everything he said, says he didn't mean any of it (riiiggghhhhtt), he'll never talk to me that way again and nobody deserves to be talked to that way. Blah, Blah, Blah. I told him well frankly everything that I said to you the last we talked I did mean, I quite frankly don't care anymore, y r u apologizing a month later? and all we have to discuss is child support which can actually be settled in court, anything else? He said he tried to call but my phone went straight to vm (bs) and I never pick up his calls (y should I?) He's still full of shit and lies and listenin to him lie to me just irritates the hell out of me, so I told him I had to go. He said don't get off the phone like this, i'm trying to work things out here. He still doesn't get it. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE! I was so upset that day, I cried the rest of the day. My own mother has even told me she's never seen me cry, thats jus not my style, so he must've really upset me. there is no going back or working anything out, those things he said are unforgetable and unforgiveable. Like I said as far as my son goes, we can settle things in court because I don't have the time or patience to try to make him understand how fucked he is and what the right thing to do is. Jesus Christ he's 5 years older than me and still a little boy. I don't buy that apology, sounded like somebody put the words in his mouth. I've decided to be happy and he is someone who does not make me happy, but highly irritated. Me and my baby deserve better.
He's always claiming that hes broke but I heard he recently went white water rafting at some lodge with some coworkers and his new gf. So he has money to go on trips but no money to do shit for me or the baby. I got so pissed off I started cursing him out. He said he I was being silly and I need to look at the whole picture. I said the whole picture is that I'm pregnant by myself and taking care of things by myself. You're not even in the picture, don't you get it?! wtf are you looking at? You're in another picture taking trips, havin fun, with some other chick, maybe more than one, we're not even in the same picture. You even told me yourself "we are not apart of your life." You're a sorry piece of shit. He responded that I'm just mad he's happy and want him to be unhappy like me but that's not the case. I then asked him to just terminate his parental rights. I don't want anything to do with him. To my understanding even if he terminates them, he will still have to pay child support. I said I'm glad you can be so happy while you're causing so much misery. Glad you're making yourself happy spending money on yourself when you have a kid on teh way that you probably havent even put enuf money away for a onsie. He makes me soo upset. And I know Im not supposed to be right now, but he's just so clueless. I'm tired of him callin to say he's sorry, I already know that he's a sorry piece of shit and his sorries arent doing anything for me or my baby, I told him not to call me until he's ready to do something.
He starts saying that I put myself in this situation, I ran off with my tail inbetween my legs back home to my mommy and daddy, he didn't want a kid, we were nothing, he never gave a fuck about me, he doesn't give a fuck about me or what happens to me, he doesn't even like me, we're enemies, that for some reason Im still tryin to be with him when I've known about all his dirt for a few months now so I must be a glutton for punishment, how i'm an awful person and he would never want to be my friend and doesn't see how I have friends. I would give him rides to work, pick up/drop off his son from/to school, we were together all the time, we worked together and the worst things people had say about me were that I was too nice and a bit of a pushover, he's the one who nobody at work liked, hes the one who lied to me, gave me stds, then got me preg, bounced with a new gf and I'm the awful person??
*UPDATE* So I posted all this what? a month ago right? Havent' heard from the SOB since, until this morning that is. I went to get a 4d ultrasound yesterday and my baby looked soo beautiful. He looked like an angel! You can see so much detail, I can see exactly what he looks like. I sent the pic to everyone, including him. I don't know why I did it, I guess I was just so excited about the picture. I actually just made it my profile pic. I haven't had a profile pic since I signed up for pregly, but I love this pic soo much!
So He called me up wanting to apologize for everything he said, says he didn't mean any of it (riiiggghhhhtt), he'll never talk to me that way again and nobody deserves to be talked to that way. Blah, Blah, Blah. I told him well frankly everything that I said to you the last we talked I did mean, I quite frankly don't care anymore, y r u apologizing a month later? and all we have to discuss is child support which can actually be settled in court, anything else? He said he tried to call but my phone went straight to vm (bs) and I never pick up his calls (y should I?) He's still full of shit and lies and listenin to him lie to me just irritates the hell out of me, so I told him I had to go. He said don't get off the phone like this, i'm trying to work things out here. He still doesn't get it. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE! I was so upset that day, I cried the rest of the day. My own mother has even told me she's never seen me cry, thats jus not my style, so he must've really upset me. there is no going back or working anything out, those things he said are unforgetable and unforgiveable. Like I said as far as my son goes, we can settle things in court because I don't have the time or patience to try to make him understand how fucked he is and what the right thing to do is. Jesus Christ he's 5 years older than me and still a little boy. I don't buy that apology, sounded like somebody put the words in his mouth. I've decided to be happy and he is someone who does not make me happy, but highly irritated. Me and my baby deserve better.
He's always claiming that hes broke but I heard he recently went white water rafting at some lodge with some coworkers and his new gf. So he has money to go on trips but no money to do shit for me or the baby. I got so pissed off I started cursing him out. He said he I was being silly and I need to look at the whole picture. I said the whole picture is that I'm pregnant by myself and taking care of things by myself. You're not even in the picture, don't you get it?! wtf are you looking at? You're in another picture taking trips, havin fun, with some other chick, maybe more than one, we're not even in the same picture. You even told me yourself "we are not apart of your life." You're a sorry piece of shit. He responded that I'm just mad he's happy and want him to be unhappy like me but that's not the case. I then asked him to just terminate his parental rights. I don't want anything to do with him. To my understanding even if he terminates them, he will still have to pay child support. I said I'm glad you can be so happy while you're causing so much misery. Glad you're making yourself happy spending money on yourself when you have a kid on teh way that you probably havent even put enuf money away for a onsie. He makes me soo upset. And I know Im not supposed to be right now, but he's just so clueless. I'm tired of him callin to say he's sorry, I already know that he's a sorry piece of shit and his sorries arent doing anything for me or my baby, I told him not to call me until he's ready to do something.
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Right now its hard cuz your prego and alone, but once u have this baby you will have your that beautiful reward out of this shitty situation. My bf of 5 yrs was long gone when I found out I was prego. That was 7 yrs ago. I've since moved on and remarried and prego with my 4th. That douche met my son once when he was 5 and that's it. He has no rights as a father but I have an open case with child support but he has yet to pay a dime by working under the table. By the sounds of your bd he doesn't sound worthy of taking care of a child. When u have the baby if he doesn't sign the declaration of paternity his name wont be on the birth certificate. At least that is in CA. Once u open a case for child support they will order a proof of paternity for u. If u terminate his rights he will not have to pay cuz he wont be considered the father. Like I said mine has no rights but he needs to be held responsible for his child. Which is the only reason I never had my hubby adopt him, even if its 20 years from now he will eventually have to pay. I know exactly how your feeling right now sweetie, the love of my life did me the same way. Thank God u have your parents and good friends to support u. U need to keep that piece of shit as far away from u as possible! Keep your head up and remember there is a bright light at the end of this tunnel
@Jaime77 yea maybe you're right and that would be nice if that happened sometime in the future. But right now things are too tense and he's not doing right by me or the baby by the way he's acting and I can't be bothered.
@grissy_barria Really I need to find out how it is in Maryland. I'm not sure if he would do it tho. And as far as doing it alone, I wasnt really given the option, but I would never abort my child just bcuz of the stupid father.