i dont even no wat to put......
ever since i got pregnant me and my fiancee have been fighting 
we have gotten into 2 BIG fights which ended up in him hitting me of course i have anger problems and i fought back at the time i didnt think about my baby... so like a week ago i went to the doctor and they said my baby had something in his heart that they didnt no exactly wat it was and not to worry about it bc it could go away..... and that only like 1% of babies that had that were born with retardation and the rest were fine (if it makes since)... im sooo depressed bc i think its my fault my baby has that!! im always crying thinking to myself if something is wrong with him i am NEVER gonna forgive myself!! and everytime i try to tlk to my fiancee he says i dont wanna tlk about it or he just dosent say anything... and i dont even no wat to say or do anymore... i think im going to go crazy!!
we have gotten into 2 BIG fights which ended up in him hitting me of course i have anger problems and i fought back at the time i didnt think about my baby... so like a week ago i went to the doctor and they said my baby had something in his heart that they didnt no exactly wat it was and not to worry about it bc it could go away..... and that only like 1% of babies that had that were born with retardation and the rest were fine (if it makes since)... im sooo depressed bc i think its my fault my baby has that!! im always crying thinking to myself if something is wrong with him i am NEVER gonna forgive myself!! and everytime i try to tlk to my fiancee he says i dont wanna tlk about it or he just dosent say anything... and i dont even no wat to say or do anymore... i think im going to go crazy!!
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I believe heart defects are usually genetic though, so nothing you have done could have caused it. Just try to focus on the positive and destress. Good luck!
i hope i didnt cause anything im gonna have another doctor app to see how everything is going bc my dumb a** didnt really ask the doctor anything about the situation i guess i was trying to understand and i was in shock when he told me everything... but thanks u made me feel way better!!
i feel like such a baby i no i need to suck it up but i just couldnt take it anymore i had to tlk to someone and since i dont have any friends here i thought yall could help even though it seems soo weird..
let me get a hold of some pen and paper lol ~O)
@mommyof3girls yes he did bc i threw the remote control at him he is a good person the thing is that i pick at him and thats when he gets feed up and mad... but i have promised myself that if it happens again im gonna have to move and get away bc its not healthy for either of us... sometimes i think its my hormones i can be a bit** sometimes i just need to control it! for the health of everyone..
thanks for your help