Cant even look at him. I'm so mad i just wanna cry/scream... something i dont even know.
So hubby and i have been together for over 4 years now. Shortly after we first got together I was helping him clean his room and found a few polaroids of his cousins (at the time) girlfriend. She is completely nude in these pictures. Well at the time i confronted him with them (not to hard he was sitting less then 2 feet away. He then explained to me that this girl and him used to work together and she asked him to take the photos for her while they were in the freezer at work well i dont really believe this because in one picture she looks drunk and like she has or is about to pass out. I informed him that it was not a good thing for him to have these pictures and they needed to be destroyed. well he wanted to save them to give to his cousin. So he said. well just over a year later we moved in to our own home and I flat out told him they were to never enter my house. at which point he said he would get rid of them. Well today i'm cleaning my living room of all places to not only find guess what one of these pictures of her but it is one that was taken of her from between her legs up the front of her body. so you can see EVERYTHING!!! so I stayed calm an tossed the picture on the floor at his feet and asked him why the heck is he hiding nude pictures of his cousins (now) wife in my living room. He acted dumb like he didnt know where it came from or how it got there. I dont know what to even say to him at this point i'm angry, trying not to cry. And I know he is embarresed (sp) because he is trying to suck up big time now. Which he only does when he has done something he shouldnt have and/or is ashamed of. I swear it feels like its always something with him anymore.
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@Mommy_of_two - that is what i'm scared of. He has known her for a really long time and i think he had a thing for her back in high school. She is a skinny mini type girl and I am by no means fat when i'm not preggers but i have gained about 20lbs since we got together. (started having medical issues, unfortunaltly it makes it very hard for me to keep weight off.) So i'm sure alot of why i'm upset is i'm unhappy with my body any way and now being preggers i almost out weigh him. and our sex life has went to crap on top of it. So if hes not getting it from me hes getting something some how.
@laura536 - He dropped them back on the floor when he was playing stupid. I flat out told him to pick them up and get dispose of them NOW! he then wadded them up and tossed them in the trash. I came home a few months ago and he was masturbating on the couch. I didnt see anything that he may have been "using" and he claims he wasnt doing what I know i saw him doing. and he started acting the way he is now. and he knows that if i find porn on my computer or in my house then our marriage is over. Personally i feel it is a form of cheating and can and will eventually lead to worse forms of cheating. But i dont care if he plays with himself I'm not always around to take care of him and i would rather him do that then something else.
I DO agree the pics of the cousins wife is disrespectful even if you hadn't already asked him to get rid of them previously, but the fact you have asked repeatedly shows ultimate disrespect. Maybe you should dig them out of the trash and destry them or something to make sure they donr resurface later.
@momof22be - Im tempted to just pack a bag and go stay at my moms. (they are all out of town) but i know he wont care if i leave and that will only hurt even more.
Everyone has their own views on porn. I have issues with it for my own personal reasons. for instants my 1st serious relationship was with a man that liked porn. 2 and a half years into our relationship i found out that his intrest in porn had led him to go pay money for a hooker. And yes i know every man is diffrent and most guys wouldnt do this but i ended up having more then one guy do something close to this. and I am strongly anti porn now.
I agree with @mommyof22be how about making some dirty pics of you? I bet he would find them sexy and maybe you'll find them stashed around the house so he can please himself then there is no guilt on his part and well.. you know your the only thing he is looking at!
@KalikoJenie - I have tried that before back when i was still my "skiny" self. I had sent him pictures on his phone. But he always acted as if it was wrong for me to do. then he would decide he wanted to take the pictures but he always focuses on nothing but the Va J J which made me feel kinda used... like the rest of me wasnt good enough for the picture.