5 weeks ago my son was born sleeping.
Its been 5 weeks since my son came into this world sleeping. We've since put up a memorial shelf with all his toys, things family & friends have given us in his honor and my little ones urn and Teddy bear from the hospital the day he wad born. All medical records show no reason why my water broke at almost 21 weeks. His autopsy came back normal, my tests all normal, chromosome tests all fine. My poor son now falls into the 50% of cases of stillborns that have no reason. I miss him everyday, I'm writting a book to help other mothers regain their strength to go on after such a hardship. I've read almost 20 books while on mybleave from work and they have help some but they are all the same in some aspects. The books fallow the same lines as "here's my story, this is what happened to me, now feel better & here's why". That's not really what a mother wants to read about after her own loss, she wants words of hope, examples of higher achievement in this world inb keeping their child life alive inside and how not to have to hide that she is truly still a mother. I'm not mad or upset at anything that life has thrown my way but I feel that loading my son has given me a goal to reach out to mothers even those who haven't experience d a loss to show them we are women. We stand strong, we bond together and we need each other. Once I go back to work next week I'm going to ask my employeer to help start a team for March of Dimes in the city I live in, since the closest one is 200 miles away. I know other women who would love to honor their children by helping familys with medical problems and research for preventing childbirth problems. Well I've said my peace for now, thank you ladies for all your words of hope god bless all of you and unroll next time "Angel Dust to all the mommies on here" xoxoxoxo
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What helped me heal was journaling. I think everyone copes in thier own way, but having support is key!
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If you go to the March of dimes website they can provide whomever with the information to start a walk in your area or even how to start donations in your son's name. If you don't mind me asking what is his name and if you like I will add his name to the list of babies I walk for.