Sometimes I think about leaving him..
My bf and I have been together for two years, we lost a baby last july when I was 14 weeks, we've been through so much together in such a short time. Now I'm 25 weeks with our son and I feel like I've been having more second thoughts than ever, is this normal? Sometimes I wish I had never fallen in love with him so it would be easy to leave, I can't imagine things without him though, he's my best friend. But at the same time I feel like the passion and romance is gone and I miss it. He can be very irresponsible and make poor choices, we both have a bad background so we've struggled to change so we can be good parents, but it seems like he still has his head in the clouds. It's not fair to our son to get used to us being together to only split up later, but at the same time it's not fair to me to be depressed because of these thoughts I have. I know he loves me and he does so much for me and he wants to get married one day, but in the back of my head I have a hard time with it. My ex abused me and used me and did horrible things to me and both of my parents have done the same, so I have a very hard time trusting people and letting them be close to me.. so I never know who to let in because I second guess everyone. Talon has been so patient with me helping break down my walls and help me communnicate with people, our relationship has come so far, but I have a lot of trouble seeing our future. I really don't know what I should do anymore, I can't just be thinking about myself anymore. I want to wait things out until after the baby is here, but at the same time I don't want to keep feeling like this..
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