severe depression almost sucidal. i need help
I just don't know why but I'm getting worse. I thought pregnant women were supposed to be happy and enjoy pregnancy. Not me though. At first I was moody and that was fine, its normal to be moody when pregnant. Next, it went from being moody to being kinda mean. Still thought it may be normal. Then I went from mean to just down right being angry and taking it out on the world and everyone around me. I told my doctor and was put on Welbutrin. Now, I feel like an empty shell. I'm severely depressed. I dont get out of bed anymore. I get on my phone and Facebook but I really don't talk to any body. I have spent the last two days staring at the wall and only getting up to pee. My dreams have turned into nightmares. I dream I slit my wrists and then wake up right before I die. I had no choice but to run out to my daughters school today, and as I'm going down the road I'm thinking how nice it would be if I slammed into a tree. I dont care about my appearance anymore. I don't bother looking in mirrors because I feel so ugly. I can't eat and I don't want to sleep because I wake up having anxiety. I have no idea what the hell happened to me!!! I'm having to stay with my parents because I left my BD. They are making my situation worse. They don't seem to give a shit that I'm slipping away they have to throw in my face that this isn't my house. I know this isn't normal, but is it possible that pregnancy hormones have caused this or is this something else?
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is there anyway to get out of your parents house?
I don't know where you live but if your trying to help yourself and be healthy for your children I can't see srs taking your babies away. Its something like 10% of pregnant women suffer serious depression they can't just take a baby for something like that *I would hope*