so stressed!

Ok...so I am a mommy of 3 ages 12,10,&7 with baby #4 due 10/31. My hubby works full-time but just recently got this job after working in restaurants with changing hours. I have a home daycare that has been in business for 7+ years. Right now I have 2 little girls that I care for one who is 2 that I have watched since 6 wks old and a 3 yr old I have watched since 7 mo old. We lost 2 kids in May due to them moving out of state. I had been holding those 2 spots for the 3 yr holds family as they had twins in June. They are starting Monday...but on Friday the family put their 2 week notice in because their dads mom found a nanny for them and worries it will be too much for me to have the twins that will be about 5-6 mos old when my son is born plus my son. This family has told me since she found out she was pregnant that they wanted to keep their family here, we knew months before the other ones moved that they were moving and when...so I could have filled these spots time and again. But didn't so that we could have room for the twins. I did summer care for school kids instead of filling the other two spots. And now they are leaving? I am losing $265 a week and don't know what to do. Not many people are going to want to start a daycare with a provider due to deliver in less than 10 weeks. I can't very well get an outside job at 7.5 mos pregnant. This drops my income down to a $100 week plus my husbands. How are we going to make it? I don't know what to do! I keep picturing my family being homeless. My husband keeps saying not to stress that it will work out....but how? I can't stop crying. I feel like a loser who can't provide for our family. I am praying and trying to let God handle it, but I am a control freak who needs to know we will be OK. I was already making less than ever because I dropped the #of kids I usually watch down from 6 to 4 to be able to better provide for the twins and my own son. And now this. I'm sorry its so long...I just needed someone to talk to That wont be frustrated with my crying constantly.

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  • I don't know if ur religious, but god will provide.. he works in funny ways sometimes and ur husband is right.. stressing won't help anything, and u prob don't need that and baby don't need it either! Just know u are doing the best at the most important job in the world, and its cooking that bun in the oven and loving ur other kids. I pray things look up for ya, trust and love.. That's what it takes ;)
  • @podgemarine we are Christians...but I admit the thing I struggle most with is giving complete control to God. I had a crappy childhood and it turned me into a mommy who has to control everything. Which I know s unrealistic...but its me. I think that's why my hubby is frustrated with me...because he wants me to just take care of myself and Maddox and to trust in him and the Lord to take care of us.
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  • @richjen24 thanks! I hate sounding like such a baby! This was just not something I was expecting at all. I mean they knew we were trying to get pregnant, knew the day e found out...and still planned on putting their twins here. Paid their deposit in June, signed the contract on Thursday, and then turned in notice on Friday. What the crud is that? How can you just now be concerned over this. I'm just hurt.
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  • @richjen thank you...your words really helped me.
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