Just venting. Long
My son was born a week ago. Ever since I've been on edge. His birth wasn't easy. I was stuck in the hospital doing a two day induction that failed. I opted for a c section. Doc called the social services on me because of his misinterpretation of something I said. Spoke with social services, they saw no need in continuing to see me. From the night I went in to be induced (which was a wednesday) til the day I was discharged (sunday) I maybe had 8 hours of sleep if that.
night of being discharged I had to stay up with my son with no help from dad because he had to be at work at 4am til 2:30 pm. He gets home by 3, showers them takes the baby. My bf is heavy set and a somewhat heavy sleeper, and I noticed that when he's holding the baby that he's falling asleep and that he isn't fully attentive to him. While he's holding him or burping him his hands is falling and so is the baby. That freaking scares me.
I'm so sleep deprived and I'm so damn tried of hearing sleep when the baby sleeps. My baby sleeps peacefully during the day, and thats when his dad had him, but thats also when dad is napping and isn't fully paying attention to he is holding the babyand it worries me. I know he means no harm, but with so many infant accidents I refuse to not pay attention.
baby plays possum during the night. Sleeps got dad during the day. I'm not sleeping or eating. I'm exclusively pumping. Still recovering from my c section. Have no one to vent to. This was the only place I could do it.
night of being discharged I had to stay up with my son with no help from dad because he had to be at work at 4am til 2:30 pm. He gets home by 3, showers them takes the baby. My bf is heavy set and a somewhat heavy sleeper, and I noticed that when he's holding the baby that he's falling asleep and that he isn't fully attentive to him. While he's holding him or burping him his hands is falling and so is the baby. That freaking scares me.
I'm so sleep deprived and I'm so damn tried of hearing sleep when the baby sleeps. My baby sleeps peacefully during the day, and thats when his dad had him, but thats also when dad is napping and isn't fully paying attention to he is holding the babyand it worries me. I know he means no harm, but with so many infant accidents I refuse to not pay attention.
baby plays possum during the night. Sleeps got dad during the day. I'm not sleeping or eating. I'm exclusively pumping. Still recovering from my c section. Have no one to vent to. This was the only place I could do it.
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