I feel trapped :( I want to go home
Raistlin is 11 days old and we're living with my fiance, his parents, and his younger sister. I feel like I have no privacy outside our bedroom, which is crowded with ours and Raistlin's things, I can't leave this room without running into someone and I'm not a social person, I would rather be alone most of the time. I hate that whenever I leave the room they try to start conversations with me and someone ALWAYS tells me how exhausted I look.. ya thanks I KNOW. And after they all get home from work during the day they take my son and pass him around for hours and when they're done with him they don't even bring him back to me they usually just put him in his swing or something.. My fiance refuses to move into my mom's house even though it's almost twice the size of his house and the only other person living there is my mom.. we would have the entire basement to ourselves except every other weekend when my sister comes and stays. My family has always been independent, we never really had family night or did anything special on the holidays since the rest of our family lives out of state. Last Thanksgiving I sat at home with my mom and we made chili and had pumpkin pie, and I loved it. Talon has all of these huge family get togethers that I hate because his house gets SO crowded and I can't remember anyone's names and everyone is asking me personal questions like I want to tell them about my whole life.. I get really bad anxiety around that many people that I don't know and I get really quiet, so I'll go to our bedroom to get away from all of the chaos and he gets mad at me for being antisocial.. I'm at a point where I almost never leave our bedroom except to warm up a bottle for Raistlin or use the bathroom or something.. I hate living here 
I want to go back home
I want to go back home
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