does ppd go away on it's own...i need help

Mommysierra

I delivered on November 16th For the first two weeks I felt fine but lately things are gerrting bad and fast at first I just felt like my daughters condition was my fault and that she would be better without me in her life now I feel like smothering her when she screams or killing myself to keep me out of her life or just walking out on her and be and never coming back. I am embarrassed and ashamed that I am thinking like this and I don't how to talk to my hubby or anybody

whoaababy

No matter what you think your daughter will not be better off with her mothers love! Usually it does go away but of it continues I would talk to a doctor and maybe ask about some medication. There is nothing to be ashamed about. A lot of women experience it, I was one of them. I didn't think I was good enough for her. It will get better!

tinka1326

I would suggest because of how serious your thoughts are to talk to your doctor. Better to get some assistance so you can get back to being a happy mummy rather than struggle and effect you both. Your daughter loves you more than anyone in this world, your her everything, her works is literally based on you, so she needs you now more than ever. Dont give up, being a mum id hard but the rewards increase as they get older

Mommysierra

I have a doc app on the 28 th I guess we will see

misselfae

I had ppd with my first, didnt take the help and ended up in a bad way 4yrs later. So bad I lost 2jobs daily panic attacks and anxiety. I had to see a cognstive behrhavioral therapist to relearn coping skills. Im much better now but I hv my moments. Seek help and embrace it!! Good luck and stay safe. Remember its ok to lie baby down and walk away to calm down xx

teeniemommy

I talked to my doctor & I felt the same way and thought the same exact things. But I've had depression and anxiety since I was 13 and was suicidal. I'm starting zoloft now. but what really changed things around was when my hubby snapped at me for getting frustrated and yelling- it hit something inside of me remembering the abusive childhood I went through- 4 weeks and I've been the greatest mommy in the world. Haven't even started my medicine yet

Mommysierra

Well it was always told to me as a kid over and over that depressed ppl were just trying to get pills and attention so I'm hesitant to ask for help

Mommysierra

My mom has depression

teeniemommy

@misselfae I agree, walking away was the best thing I ever learned how to do. My daughter had bad reflux/ and was just plan fussy. There was nothing more I could do. So I walked away. It hurts was the hardest thing to do. But she's alive and so am I. They know we love them. But my hubby telling me I'm not super mom really hit me that I'm not perfect and can't always meet expectations of doctors and specialists who say not to let a baby cry or to know to do something BEFORE THEY CRY OR SHOW THEY NEED SOMETHING.

teeniemommy

It sometimes runs in the family, my grandma, mom, aunts and I all have it and need medicine.

Mommysierra

@teeniemommy I feel bad leaving be to take care of her by himself if I'm there to help

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kenzie0713

im so sorry your going thru this!! it DOES NOT go away on its own...only gets worse...mine started 3 weeks pp and im now about 13 weeks pp. I fought it for 2 weeks with constant panic and anxiety and i was like a zombie like my whole world was a fog...went to several drs because most are morons and just want to give you a ssri such as zoloft paxil or the one i was given celexa. those made me worse i ended up 3 drs later with klonopin ive been on it for 2 months and feel pretty much back to normal...id say 90% so ive began to step myself off my medicine as of today, not sure if thats a great idea but we will see. Im also seeing a therapist once a week and im going to say she is a great listener but shes pretty much useless in helping my condition. Find a good Dr that understands ppd...our obgyns only know so much. Giving birth is a HUGE life change and if your a high strung type a person it tends to be harder to adjust to. if you ever need to talk im here. did you deal ever with any anxiety panic or depression issues in the past?? if so you are way more prone to ppd

LilSugarsMomma

Yes, it WILL go away eventually, but not fast. My PPD suffering ended in 2008, 2 years after I delivered my son. I was put on Zoloft, Paxil, Celexa, Lexapro and Prozac with no luck. I would basically start on a low dose, it would stop working, then I would max out on the dosage and be switched to something else.

My PPD was like yours - to the point of morbid, horrible thoughts. I had to learn to cope with it on my own. Not always will drugs help, but you should seriously speak with your doctor. If you're having those thoughts, I would talk to a doc ASAP. PPD is not something to mess around with.

I'm sorry you're going thru PPD, and I hope that you get the help you need, and deserve. Let us know how things go.

erkiehadagirl

I'm so so sorry your going threw this because I am as well when I go threw these moments all I can do is cry I worry way to much about my daughter I have totally morbid thoughts and I feel like my family doesn't deserve me....some days are better then other....when you go for your appt def talk to your doc I'm planning go do the same....I'm on the depo and I'm not getting my next dose to see if that helps...try and talk with others or even on here that might help till you can talk to your ob lots of ladies on here have been threw it and don't be ashamed...

burntoutmama

I've been dealing with it for 5 months hasn't went away I go in another week back to doctor and I'm getting meds I'm tired of fighting only for the next day to be worst. I can't imagine doing this for any longer....

mam082711

It doesn't go away on its own imo. I am almost 4 months pp and thought the same thing, that it would go away, and it just got worse. I'm seeing a therapist now and I've only had 2 sessions so I can't say I feel better yet. But I'm open to taking meds I just have to see the psychiatrist first. There's no shame in asking for help your bub needs a happy healthy mama! If you're having thoughts of harming yourself or baby that's an emergency and you need to be seen asap. You know inside it's irrational thinking but our minds are weird things and can make us do things we'll only regret later.

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Mommysierra

Sry guys haven't been on in a few days things have been tough hubby lost his job sk yay more stress I have a pp appointment on Thursday hopefully she can help I'm in a pretty bad place right now the stress that we don't know where we may be living next month doesn't help

allyssasmommy

I deliverd too November 16 and 2 weeks later same thing but about dreams I was having I couldn't look at my baby w out crying so I called the doc they have me zoloft and I'm glad I'm 99.9% me I've been on it for 3 weeks I'm actually enjoying my baby I take 100 mg and the only side affect I have is its hard to reach an orgasm that's it

captivated

PPD commonly comes to an end around one year postpartum. However, you should not have to live with that long being untreated. There are so many options available to women suffering from it!

kayleigh27

I had ppd with my daughter. I felt totally overwhelmed. Didnt even want to go to her when she would cry. I was trying to BF and when that didn't work out I was feeling even more guilty and depressed. No one helped at all until I went to the dr and got placed on wellbutrin. Which worked but I got off of it after a couple of months because I got pregnant and didn't trust the medication with my baby. Im almost 8 months pregnant now and im still having some ppd right now so im really worried about after this baby comes. I just hope I have more support this time around

ScarlettsMama

I was having very similar feelings, its is very normal but sadly not very talked about! I had to go on Zoloft to make it go away and it did, I'm so much better now!!! Please please please i urge u to talk to you OB about it and get on meds asap, don't be ashamed a lot of us suffer from it!

Mostephanite

I have never been the same since having PPD .. I had it five years ago now and was on meds. Up until I got pregnant last november... mine was really bad though I didn't talk to anyone I never slept and when you would talk to me it was like talking to a wall I wouldn't answer you back ... my husband forced me to go to the doctor when my son was 8 months old because I didn't even know I had a problem until after I was on the medication... I honestly don't remember the first 8 months of my five years old life... all I did was take care of him and stare at him when he slept... I informed my dr. Of my. PPD history so when I delivered Gryson in sept. They. Automatically put me on medication to help me ... I have been off of them for three months now and never felt better ... it just took me five years to get over it