I know I am......I just cant help it. *update at bottom*
I know I am going thru it. I can't help it I try n try to over come it but for some reason its winning. I find my self crying n not eating. I feel like my husband is going to get tired of me. He take my son out every chance he gets for he won't be stuck in the house. And I feel he is going to take advantage n start to cheat on me. He says that he understands me but he doesn't.
He doesn't feel what I feel. He doesn't feel the pain in,my heart.
Or the pain I get n my eyes when I see self in the mirror. I know I suppose to be stronger because now I have two bby depending on,me. But I can't... I just can't. I only cry after I feed my daughter and when my husband leaves.
But I find my self crying about thoughts of him with other women. Idk I just need to cry to someone thats not going to judge me for being crazy.
Thank you for taking interest.
He doesn't feel what I feel. He doesn't feel the pain in,my heart.
Or the pain I get n my eyes when I see self in the mirror. I know I suppose to be stronger because now I have two bby depending on,me. But I can't... I just can't. I only cry after I feed my daughter and when my husband leaves.
But I find my self crying about thoughts of him with other women. Idk I just need to cry to someone thats not going to judge me for being crazy.
Thank you for taking interest.
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And I feel that if I talk to my husband he is going to tell me ur crazy stop thinking like that. N blow it off.
I went thru the same thing with my son and it was worst. Idk,I tried so hard not to go thru it again. I toke my vitamins, stayed healthy. But here I am again.
@BlessedTXMom
@Mama_Kat
I try n try to talk to him but I,think he knows wats coming so he avoids it.
sometimes I try to catch him off guard but he is always with his brother.
Like yesterday I texted.him when he was wrk that to come alone that I needed to talk to him. N its like I said come with him.
Also yesterday night he,tells me why are you n a bad mood?
And I just lokk at him n feel like droping down n bursting in to tears n scream to him ”like,you don't know!!!!”
But all,I do is,say im not in a bad mood.
@Mama_Kat
he told me he'll never cheat on me that if he wouldn't love me he wouldn't be with me and or have two babies with me.
he laid me on his lap and started brushing my hair with his fingers he said that I was the world to him.
he started to cry when he began to tell me that he changed his whole life for me and that hurts him to his stomach to see me cry.
it fElt so good to get everything off my chest in to know that he cares about me thank you so much for taking an interest in my problem.
I am still going to talk to my doctor to see what he tells me because I don't like to feel like this but I also don't want to get on any medication.
talking to my husband fix half of problem now I have to take care of the rest to make sure I can get down like this again.
Has anyone read her book? It is sooo good.
Sorry its so long!
like if i can do somthing natural then ill do if i have to make my husband take me to a person to talk to then ill do that. but i dont want to start somthing that is going to be hard to stop later on.
@cant_wait93 you can best feed and take Zoloft. Zoloft is one of the safest ssri's
@cant_wait93 you wean off zoloft.
@brodysmamma, @allyssasmommy