My heart is breaking.......no thanks to my brother!
So my lil bro & I are 8 yrs apart (he's 19), he is in the Army stationed in a different state & in March he & his fiance got married bc they wanted to & bc my bro was suppose to deploy in a few days, but he isn't deploying now (& we are so happy) (I love my s-i-l, she is a sweetheart) so she wants to wait a few yrs for kids (bc of college), but bc my bro was deploying so she stopped taking her birth control. Now he's not deploying so We are moving her to on base w/ him in mid june, well he came home this wknd & (sorry tmi!) as he hugged me good bye he whispered in my ear "I came inside Brook last night"...........I don't know what upsets me.more, the fact that he knows its been hard for me to conceive & that I want to b a mommy more than anything & is rubbing it in my face or the fact that he's purposely trying to get her prego. She just came off her period about 4-5 days ago so I know she's due for ovulation & she never misses, she is regular & has her period on time every month. Its just breaking my heart, I can't control the tears right now! I am in such a bad mood & can't seem to shake it off! Its just breaking my heart, its like he cut me, opened the wound & poured a bunch of salt & squeezed a lime inside! I think it also hurts that my mom pays attention to my bro & he is priority (yes I get it he's in the army) but if he gets blessed w/ the 1st grandbaby, then my mom is going to forget I exist! She is the best mom & l am truly blessed to have the parents I have, but she is soooo ready for grandbabies that she will literary put me in the back, back burner! Dear God please bless me!!!! @beautifulnightmare Thank you so much for listening to me!
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*baby dust!*
@SurpriseBaby I am not sure why he did it the way he did and yes we are pretty close. The meds I am currently taking for my hyperplaysia (overgrowth lining of the uterus) have me very emotional sometimes. I am still pretty hurt but I am controlling my crying lol
@Jaime77 Yeah I don't know, he sometimes says this stuff just to see my reaction but this time he truly hurt my heart
@youngmami3 I just need to learn that he is my lil bro and he will say things w/out thinking, I know that he would never hurt me on purpose the way he did and Im sure he doesn't even realize he hurt me the way he did, but I should punch him in the nads next time LOL (j/k)
@richjen24
@tinka1326 Thank you!
@jalem All the girls I went to school with are prego w/ their 1st, 2nd, or 3rd (Literally almost every single one) then my cousin who is 1 yr and 4 mo. younger than me (her and hubby got married 2 months before me and hubby
@NewMommy_NavyWife I hope he didn't truly mean to hurt me the way he did. Thank you for the dust I will take all I can get and all the prayers
@beautifulnightmare :-D
@Wantingagirl
@ALL Thank you for all your support ladies, I honestly wouldn't know what to do if I didn't have Pregly or met some of the great ladies that are on here!!!! Thank you!