so freakin depressed...

briAnewmombriAnewmom
edited June 2011 in Pregnant
Ugh I can't get outta this mood! I miss my cute body but feel blessed for my baby. I miss my pup I can't believe someone stole him... I wish we could afford our own apartment someplace I could be comfy and call home some place I could hang something on the wall. I wish we could afford anything! I wish he'd get hired. Wish I could get baby stuff. Or even afford to go get a smoothie! God im such a whiner!!! And even that makes me depressed...
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  • MikeandRonAdoptMikeandRonAdopt
    edited June 2011
    You are not a whiner. Your life isn't where you want it to be right now and there's nothing wrong with acknowledging that. It sounds like you have clear goals and just need the tools and support to achieve them. Don't give up on the things you want.. and don't settle... You will blink and things will have gotten better. ;)
  • MistyLouMistyLou
    :( Praying for you. It'll get better just keep the faith.
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @MikeandRonAdopt its just so hard... I've been waiting two yrs for him to be able to work now he can and were getting nowhere.. everything is so hard no matter what I do to make it better its not. I feel bad because I resent my fiance for not taking care of us like he always says and that makes me feel bad. I graduated 2 yrs ago at 16 frm highschool and he promised I could go to college while he worked but he's just now able to go back to work and now college with this baby coming when we can't even afford a smoothie seems impossible. I love this baby girl...I think she's the only reason I get thru the day... @MistyLou thank u for ur prayers they are appreciated!!
  • MikeandRonAdoptMikeandRonAdopt
    @briAnewmom ... do you think he is genuinely trying his hardest to look for work?
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @MikeandRonAdopt he's trying sorta. But he's not willing to apply for anything other than oilfield cuz it pays so well. But its also hard to get back into after him getting hurt in the field and it bugs me he would be gone 20 days a month but if he'd get hired id take it. No I don't think he's trying hard part of why I resent him. I feel bad for being mad at him but I just want him to work! It wld be amazing to have money to get what we NEED like gas money extra groceries etc and wld be nice to afford things we want like books for me or dinner out together or a game for him
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    He makes promises he can't keep gives up easily and doesn't try hard to do what needs done. It makes me so sad to continue barely surviving when I waited 2 yrs for improvement and I hate to admit it but im extremely jealous of ppl who have the life I wish we do
  • MikeandRonAdoptMikeandRonAdopt
    edited June 2011
    @briAnewmom ... I work for an Attorneys office. I do pre-trial litigation trying to resolve lawsuits before they have to actually go before a judge. So often I talk to people who want to do X as a career and can;t find a job doing X, so they do nothing. Instead of swallowing their pride or temporarily lowering their standards, they would rather have no job at all. I dont understand that.

    I hope he comes to his senses soon! Want me to rough him up for ya? ;)
  • MikeandRonAdoptMikeandRonAdopt
    edited June 2011
    dbl posted
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @MikeandRonAdopt ugh ppl suck why not just accept what u can get to tide u over until better comes?! I mean hello in 4 months this baby will be here and I want her to have what she needs and we need stuff too!! I hope he does too but ill give it a week and if he doesn't do something yes u can rough him up lol... thanks for the support!
  • MikeandRonAdoptMikeandRonAdopt
    No problem kiddo...
  • librababiilibrababii
    are you working? or making any sort of income of your own?
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @librababii I've been working one full time and at one point 2 full time jobs for a long time. as well as working at a refinery 94 hrs a week outside. Now im preg so I can't work the refinery so I had to take layoff at the end of march. so I work a full time now. What right would I have to be upset if I didn't work? I started working at fourteen and am now 18 I have not ever gone more than a month of that without a job. Im not lazy.
  • librababiilibrababii
    thats great!
    @ 'What right would I have to be upset if I didn't work?' --trust me, theres a bunch of girls out there that still get mad at their man & dont even have a job of their own! but im glad thats not the case with you...i also work a full time job @ a law firm...& sometimes i feel the same about my man...the only difference is, is that we're waiting 4 his business 2 start up...so while thats going on, i make the $$...he also does 'jobs on the side'...
  • IttybittyIttybitty
    i know how you feel :(
    it really does suck.. i dont want to depend on anyone else but i hate that i am always the one making the money.. it sucks :(
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @librababii its extremely hard to have a man not working especially when things r so expensive and there is a baby on the way. In a few months ill be off for baby. What happens if he's not working by then? Idk im assuming nothing good.
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @Ittybitty oh yeah its difficult to deal with no matter how hard I try to not be upset with him I am.
  • librababiilibrababii
    Talk 2 him...ask him if he realizes that he will be responsible (along with u), 4 another person...a baby...HIS baby! Tell him 2 get what he can until he can find the job he really needs...trust me tho, I know the feeling...& if he's not working by then, ur gonna have to sacrifice & make serious choices...
  • IttybittyIttybitty
    yelp.. i live with my mom and he lives with his parents due to having to help them but it irritates me that we dont live together and have our own home together. thats ALL I want now. but he has to get a job and keep it in order to even consider it..
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @librababii I try but all he says is don't worry it'll all work out ill get hired. Until then im alive ur alive and our baby is on the way were both healthy. @Ittybitty im sorry u don't live together... hope he can work it out so u can be together
  • librababiilibrababii
    Those r excuses! How old is he & how far along r u?! He needs to stop playing games n get it together!!!
  • GabrielaGabriela
    I know exactly how you feel im going through the same thing my fiance works but we have no money with rent and car payments and insurance we can't afford a smoothie either girl :/ and i don't know how im going to get through this I see so many things I wish I could buy and do and get for our son on the way and its just not possible I try to stay strong but its so hard
  • IttybittyIttybitty
    he said the same thing and i am due next month and he still hasnt got a job.. i hope yours wakes up and gets one before its to late.
    thanks, i really hope so too
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @librababii he's 28 im 18 im 21 weeks 6 days with a precious baby girl @Gabriela im so sorry girl... im glad he's working but it sucks its not enough...its so hard to not be able to buy baby stuff!!! The other day i was looking at baby stuff online and typical me started bawling cuz we cant afford it... hope ur situation gets better good luck ur in my prayers.
  • GabrielaGabriela
    I feel the same way i'll go out to baby stores and see the cutest little clothes and I always walk out empty handed it really gets to me and I cry about it all the time I try to stay happy because I don't want our son to feel my pain and all of my unhappiness but I can't help it I really hope things work out better for both of us.
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @Gabriela me too girl im sorry... do u think my being depressed and upset will affect my baby girl?
  • GabrielaGabriela
    Well my mother told me that everything you feel the baby feels so I try to stay positive at all times which is really hard but I try :) I wouldn't know if it actually would affect the baby but I trust my mother she had three healthy girls so I try to listen to her advice this is my first baby im 26 weeks tomoro and im very happy I love our son I just wish we could give him everything you know I want the best for him as im sure you want for you baby girl
  • briAnewmombriAnewmom
    @Gabriela aw my poor girl... she's probably stressed to the max in there! I do want the best for her for sure
  • 1stWoodsBaby1stWoodsBaby
    @brianewmom and @Gabriela you are both in my thoughts and prayers. I kind of understand both of your situations.. my husband works while I stay home. This is the first time I haven't ever worked and its difficult for me. I've always had my own money to do what I please with so its hard to depend on someone else's money. I don't like it at all. While we have the money, I, like both of you, walk out of lots of places without anything and it is really hard because of the lifestyle I use to live. I hope things get better for both of you quickly!! You both deserve to enjoy the cute baby things that come along with being pregnant.
  • 1stWoodsBaby1stWoodsBaby
    @brianewmom and @Gabriela you are both in my thoughts and prayers. I kind of understand both of your situations.. my husband works while I stay home. This is the first time I haven't ever worked and its difficult for me. I've always had my own money to do what I please with so its hard to depend on someone else's money. I don't like it at all. While we have the money, I, like both of you, walk out of lots of places without anything and it is really hard because of the lifestyle I use to live. I hope things get better for both of you quickly!! You both deserve to enjoy the cute baby things that come along with being pregnant.
  • GabrielaGabriela
    Im sure she'll be a wonderful healthy baby girl just try to keep the stress down I know how hard it is but what helps is to try to see things in a positive way. I know how you feel as well 1stWoodsbaby I used to have everything and I could go out and get what I wanted now I don't have that luxury I wish I could work I would low to have money to support my son
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