**edited4.5.11** My Journal... includes vents..questions..UPDATES

bkuneki

Okay Mommy's and some Daddys this is where I will
-vent
-ask questions and
-keep updates...
I feel like I cannot go to anyone around anymore... it truly sucks..
You don't always have to comment or anything this is really for me to get stuff off my chest and my mind...
feel free to vent with me:)
Or give advice:)
I choice to do my venting on one thread so I don't bore everyone with the same topics...or flood the forum:)
thank you...

THIS WAS FIRST VENT FROM COUPLE DAYS AGO...

My bd is being a meany face tonight
He has been playing video games all day from the Time I got up 11am to now 12:45 am
he didn't hold me or love me today ;(
he couldn't brush my hair or rub itchy cream on me because he was busy...
he couldn't go get the bassinets/play pen thing with me because he was busy
I was having contractions and he couldn't help me because he was busy...
sometimes he sucks...
now im having to go to sleep alone...
im finally 37wks and he doesn't care much today I hope tomorrow is busy... I want my loving and caring bd back
He doesn't wanna do anything with me anymore

Maybe im just being hormonal again
im pretty sad

georgias_mummy

Awww babe we all have moments like that just chin up sure he loves u lots and lots he's just having a man day where he doesent realise how you feel xxxx

bkuneki

@georgias_mummy yeahhh im trying not to be mean to him about it...
Hopefully today is better....
it just might be that tine if the month for him lol

bkuneki

NEW VENT: ***April 1st 2011...37 wks 2 days***
since my last vent my bd has not changed much at all...
He keeps play video games and pushing me away...
he does not want to go places with me...because he wants to play games...
he does not want to spend quality time with me... because he wants to play video games.... (unless I play with him)
which I don't mind playing with him but to me it gets boring after an hour...
and I would like to be talked to and hugs kiss type of spending time...

I explained I did not enjoy him playing 24/7 it hurts when all I get is cuddling at bed time... even then he is too tiered to hold me... or do anything intimate..

Yesterday I cleaned and disinfected the whole entire house again... and finished my homework.. guess what... he played video games... then complained when I asked him to take out trash or make me a sandwich...

Today I asked him to vacuum... he finally did when I was at school... I thanked him for helping... but he cleaned something so he thoughts its okay to play video games all day...

I understand guys need guy time... but ALL DAY is ridiculous...

When I tried to get hugs from him I am instantly annoying and clingy...
so really he can shove it cause it takes 5 minutes to love me and show affection... ya know?

He does not work.. he does not go to school... he does nothing
Idk what or how to motivate him... I want to move out of the place im at and I would be working if I could... but HE PLAYS GAMES ALL DAY!!!

I have become extra irrated because lack of sleep little to none affection/communication... and contractions/pain... but no one but my mommy seems to care...
With that being said... HORMONES R A PAIN right now...

And hopefully I can't have a better update soon...

3girls_0boys

Ah sweetie i feel for u just keep your chin up maybe once the baby gets here he will realize that you r going to need help.

Mimii36

Ah! Video games! They will probably be the death of my relationship! Bd loves them..i hate them! Since weve been together ive vowed that if we ever break up..the first questioni will ask the next potential bf is if he plays video games! If he does it will be a deal breaker! No exceptions!

FirstTimeDaddy

ur putting up w alot. it must b love huh. im not the video game type. I get bored after an hour too. he needs to get a job. I live in so cal. so we r starting to get some hot weather days. hot weather = extra moody gf. I tried to hold her hand n she was like omg get off me its too hot. its all chill. I let things go

bkuneki

@3girls_0boys thanks... we will see when baby victor actually comes... I hope for improvement...
@mimibrowneyez36 yupp we should have a limit on how much they r allowed to play lol video games sucks but sometimes helpful when I am babysitting lol
@firsttimedaddy yupp it is alot on gonna try to say its not... he beds to get a job asap cuz I don't want to rely on my mom or any other family... its his job to be a man and try to help to provide... I get moody when its hot to.. sorry.. it was a nice day here today..
I went the the park with my sis and would liked it if my bd was there but u never guess where he was.... at home spending time with the lovely xbox360...
honestly I been biting my tongue and letting some things go but its getting more difficult...

Mimii36

Mine doesnt work either! Im the provider! Im the man in the relationship if u ask me. & if hes anything like mine it wont matter if you speak your mind or let it out. It just goes in one ear and out the other!

bkuneki

@mimibrowneyez36 I just confronted mine and he just walked out of the room... so pretty much one ear out the other...
im sorry but its a good thing ur already providing... independent is good(:
sometimes sucky but good(:

Mimii36

Yep but 7 months from now I will NOT be providing anymore! Only providing for my baby & thats it so he better get on the ball becuz I will not be struggling to take care of myself, a baby, & a grown ass man! Ive promised myself that!

bkuneki

@mimibrowneyez36 good for you
ill probably be doing the same thing asap...
Im still in school and under 18 but I can get a head start:)
I know I will move out asap too with or with out him...

Mimii36

Yep! If we continue to let them do as they please then they wont stop. Im raising my child better than that. Cant say im leaving him as far as our relationship because he is actually a good man but I wont teach my daughter that its ok to take care if a man or I wont teach my son that its ok let a woman take care of him while he does nothing!

bkuneki

@mimibrowneyez36
Same here... I hope my son will learn to have goals and want a future... and respect ladies.. and all the good stuff:)
its going to b up to my bd if he comes around and stays with me..
he promised forever...
im young... but not dumb...:)

bkuneki

STUPID VENT: I am in trouble because I let my younger cousin who is down to visit play with bd xbox... oooppsss.... he is 7 and knows how to play.. I set him up on a profile that bd never uses.... now he is mad and called my cousin a lil f**k... not around him but still
who calls a 7 yr old that?
plus I went to sleep alone last night and I wake up and see my bd laying next to my sister.... I know nothing LIKE THAT would happen but im lil pissed that he can lay next to my sis and not me...
Today has already started off shitty sorry for my launage Im ready to punch him in the face....

TheTrondsons1st

My friend kinda went thru the same thing with her bd. He wouldn't get a job or really help out while she was pregnant. So she left him because she wanted someone who could provide a little security. It was very hard for her but she did it. Maybe you need to talk to him about you leaving if he doesn't straighten up. Scare him a little.. let him know your serious. Good luck, hope things change for the better.

bkuneki

@thetrondsons1st I would love to leave him but he lives with me and my family... I have tryed to kick him out and it didn't go so well...

bkuneki

•••••••so freaking bummed im crying my eyes out and feeling like the crappiest mom/baby momma/girlfriend •••••••••

bkuneki

UPDATE: good mood this morning....
birthing class was awesome yesterday
this morning I think Ihad my blood show im getting closer