My last BF

lilbit01_209

Well I have finally come to terms with my milk production, well lack thereof. This morning was my last on breast feed. :-( I am going to still pump as much as I can until its gone. He is not gaining weight and actually has lost so I cant risk him for my trying to bring it back. He is 7 1/2m and even those that were supportive of me said its ok to stop. I just finally started to believe it myself. But its kinda sad... :-S

natashalynn

Definitely sad. It will be sad for a while, but that's ok. I stopped around 5.5 months for similar reasons tho she wasn't losing, but she wasn't gaining either. It sucks. Focus on the positive...you've gone a really long time, and you did your best. You're a great mommy, don't let dark thoughts convince you otherwise. Xoxo

lilbit01_209

@natashalynn Thanks! Did you still pump? If you did, did you try to 'make more' with mothers milk tea or fenugreek??

kayleigh27

Any little bit that he got was the best he could. I'm sorry it didn't work out for you but keep pumping because breast is still a good thing even if you do have to mix it in his formula.

natashalynn

I tried to pump for a bit, but the amount I was making just made me depressed. I tried finding those teas but with no luck, so I stopped altogether.

lilbit01_209

@natashalynn I dont know if I should keep with the tea and pills if Its just drying up. Like you said its kinda depressing to pump and not get as much as you were expecting.

lilbit01_209

@kayleigh27 I know. He is just to active and needed more than I can provide.

Bahamamama4828

I dont usually suggest formula but if you want to continue, most low weight babies like preemies use a fortifier (i know yours wasnt preemie like mine) its a high calorie-similac neosure with the yellow lid. you can add a scoop to the bottle twice a day that way your lo gets a few extra cals to gain. Sorry Im not much help if you have done everything you can for your supply and having it checked for calories or imbalances

Bahamamama4828

oops that was meant to say add a scoop to the bm in the bottle*

lilbit01_209

@Bahamamama4828 Well I am not wvwn getting enough from pumping. In a 14hr period I was only able to pump 8oz... I dont even 'feel' the milk anymore and its taking longer and longer for my milk to even drop now... I think they are just down for the count. I'll pump as long as I can to add to the formula.

Bahamamama4828

Aww I'm sorry! Are you working at all and have to pump? What all have you tried if you don't mind explaining?

lilbit01_209

@bahamamama4828 I was going to school and pumped 3x a day. I am now working and pump 1-2x but it was dropping way before that. I do mothers milk tea and fenugreek, nursing days in, breast massage and lots of water and it drops significantly every week.

Bahamamama4828

Is your doc allowing a script at all?

lilbit01_209

@Bahamamama4828 Never asked. Its military though so I doubt they will. Maybe if he was younger they might but I dont see them doing it now.

Bahamamama4828

I understand. Its a tough situation I'm sorry

lilbit01_209

@Bahamamama4828 Dont be. Im not sorry. I had 7 1/2 amazing months breastfeeding and I will have how ever many more my body gives me to stock up for him. I dont look at it as a failure or not working out for me because I did it! Not as long as I would have liked but thats ok. My sons ok and is healthy and will be heathier with formula then he will be with my breastmilk. Well in the sense that I dont make enough to support his metabolism and growth. All I can ask for is a healthy, energetic little man and thats what I have. And I am damn proud of how far I went.