What do you do..
When your heart is so broken? When the person you would take a bullet for, is the one behind the gun. All I want is him but I won't ever go back. I can't take the anger, hurt, sadness, and fear of being a single mom with no money or a car. I'm so lost without him. How can he hurt me so badly and tear our little family apart. When i see him he still tries to kiss me and he still says he loves me and that he's going to win me back and stop his stupid shit, but he don't. I feel like I'm so lost and alone. I have my little girl and my family but i also want him. I just keep waiting for the storm to blow over but its taking so long. I want to be able to talk to him without tearing up or thinking about him and our memories without crying. I'm so lost. I get hit on constantly but I don't do a thing about it no one else matters I just want him, but i know I'll never take him back unless the unexpected happens.. I loved him so much.
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The fact that you get hit on so much means that you're beautiful, but that doesn't mean that you have to give in. Give yourself time to gather yourself up. Make sure that whenever you do go into another relationship, whether its with the same man or a different one, that you are a stronger independent woman.
He's the father of your daughter and you will always have that connection to him, but you need to decide where to draw the line. Its ok feel sad and hurt, but pray to God and let him give you the strength to get back up and push forward. Even though you have all the right to feel hurt, remember that you have a daughter to look after and she depends on you. Find strength in her as well and be the woman would like her to be one day. Mark your distance from this man and only have the communication necessary for your daughter and that's it. Don't let him sweet talk you, because you're vulnerable right now and it will be very easy for him to reel you right in. Change your priorities. Be a little selfish and only think about improving yourself for you and your daughter's benefit. Don't be scared to ask for help from your parents. I hope that the days ahead of you start getting better and let me know if you wanna talk