In a 'pity me' kind of mood
I didn't want another baby or pregnancy, but I am feeling awfully down today about the loss. I don't think I had time to be "upset" during the long miscarriage process because of the physical pain and just being so confused. I see these posts about kicks, birth, finding out genders and I am actually feeling...jealous? It is ridiculous. I have been blessed with two miracle children, another would have devastated us financially as we are struggling to support our children now. And if you think about it, it wasn't REALLY a baby...just a sac. I kind of feel like a failure for allowing it to happen again (getting pregnant), for not taking stricter precautions...kind of feeling like I am punished. I don't really know what the point of this post was, just had to get it out I guess.
I hope and pray things turn for the better soon. I don't think we can handle much more.
I hope and pray things turn for the better soon. I don't think we can handle much more.
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Believe me when I say you can take all the precautions in the world and still get pregnant, @fate can attest to this! You are NOT a failure because you conceived. We get so comfortable in life that we tend to ”go with the flow” of things and accept things for what they are. Basically sounds like you take things in stride and accept responsibility for you actions. So pleeeeassse put a smile back on that beautiful face (believe me, it's beautiful) and get on with your day! That's an order!
I'm sending positive thoughts, love, and tons of hugs from almost 100° Arizona! LOL.
I'm so sorry for your loss hun. :-(
Im feeling a bit better now though, but lost my health insurance due to a mistake and shouldn't have been "eligible" in the first place.
@everyone, thank you for your responses. It means alot